Monday, November 25, 2013

new home

I began blogging in 2005.  When I wrote my first post I had no idea the adventure it would take me on. The doors that would open, and the opportunities that would arise.  When I wrote that very first post, I just thought it was a neat way to pair writing with photography.

Here I am, eight years later.  Wow!  Eight years.  So much has happened in my life since that very first time I hit "publish".  It has been an incredible journey.  My blog has taught me so many things about myself.  It has pushed me to grow, to reach, to dream, and to chase after those dreams and fly.

It has connected me to many amazing individuals and introduced me to some of my very best friends.  It opened up opportunities to retreat in places I have always dreamed of visiting.  And to be seen, really seen and heard.

It has provided me a forum to use my voice when I was too timid and shy to speak words out loud.  My blog has always been there waiting for me, even when I neglected it.  It never once judged, or spoke harsh words back.  It simply soaked in whatever flowed out of my fingertips.

My blog saved my life in so many ways and it continues to push me to grow stronger each and every day.  I have loved my space and time spent here on blogger.  My safe house, my home away from home, my little corner of the world wide web.

I feel, however, that I have outgrown this space.  I need a little more room to stretch a little bit higher.  I need to be able to extend my arms out, create, dream, and be.  My creative life will always be a part of my journey.  It has taking me long to declare this, but it is true.  The path is extending and I need a little more space to lean into.  

So I am pulling together Giggling in the Rain & Love Notes and sharing all of me over on

This was a big decision for me.  I was torn between integrating them.  When I first started Love Notes it felt right for it to be separate.  But as time has passed I have learned how much Love Notes really is apart of me, and feels so strange to have it on a distance space in the web.  I am love notes, love notes is me.  As well as I am Giggling in the Rain, and Giggling in the Rain is me.

It feels right to merge them.  To claim them both and to sink deeper and deeper into my own life's manifesto of spreading unexpected joy, diving into the vulnerable pieces of life, and seeking out goodness in this world, as I treasure it with gratitude.  

I hope you will join me as I continue my journey.  I have so many ideas up my sleeve and I would just love for us to travel together.  It is always more fun when you travel with a friend.

Thank you for being a part of my story.  For showing up and reading.  I appreciate each and every one of you.


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Thursday, November 21, 2013

true love

Love grows stronger and more beautiful when
you laugh with one another (especially when it involves giving the other horns in a photograph)
When you each are yourselves, utterly and completely

Without you being you, and them being them
Who are you?
Love needs each of you to thrive and flourish

I have been through the ringer in relationships
Controlling, lack of self confidence, cheating, non committal
It was a roller coaster ride of learning

But it taught me so much
About what I want, what I need
What I know I can never compromise on

And it was all so worth it
To meet my best friend
The one who makes me laugh and cheers me on, endlessly

We get along so easily
It is natural, real, kind, honest, trusting, and beautiful
We know we are meant for one another

I can alway be my silly, heart wide open, "hippy" self
And he accepts me with open arms
And I fully embrace his wild ways

It is the perfect dance
Together hearts commingling
Loving, encouraging, growing, and true

Sunday, November 17, 2013

speaking your truth

Your beauty is within your truth
The moment you share it with the world may be terrifying
But in stating your truth you will shine, brilliantly

Friday, November 15, 2013

choose your path

Choose the path that is  right for you
The one that lights YOU up inside
The one that YOU are drawn to

Do not worry about the path others are taking
Do not, do not, do not compare
The comparison game only leads to self destruction

What is right for you is not right for everyone
You must follow your heart
Go your own way

What is the one thing you would do right now if there were no limitations?
What is the one thing you always dream about doing?
What makes you laugh and giddy with excitement?

Find a way to integrate these things into your life
Even if it is just a small moment in time
Small steps lead to big changes

Choose joy
Seek out what makes you happy
And continue to take a chance on YOU

Thursday, November 07, 2013

navigating the creative life

dropping my Love Note in the mail

As I navigate this creative life my mind swirls.  Furiously I fill pages of my notebook with the beginning pieces of different ideas.  They will each need to be tended to in their own way.  Some of them will get tucked into the back of my mind as I let them gently come to life on their own.  

When we give a voice to a desire, an idea, a longing, we begin to put it into motion.  And at the time it may not seem like that is happening, but it is.  Just stating it out loud let's your mind know to keep a look out for anything on your journey that could help bring that inner dream to life.

I am carving out space in my mind to percolate ideas for connecting, inspiring, and working with individuals who are longing to create more space for their own creative life.  I am dreaming up online and in person gatherings.  I envision moments of raw heart emotion, deep conversation, support, and love.  

I am learning that we are not meant to do it alone.  As Jen Lee describes in Indie Kindred; "Do it yourself doesn't mean do it alone."  I am on the look out for creative companions carving out their own path in the world but also looking to collaborate with others.  Is there someone that you know in your corner that I should meet?

Running and nightly Tea Time have become two rituals that are keeping me grounded.  They both quiet my mind, allow me space to breathe, and provide me a moment where it is just me.  What rituals do you turn to when you mind is swirling?

Sunday, November 03, 2013

heart notes

I don't know about you, but for me, the end of the year seems to come and go in the blink of an eye.  I don't even know where it goes or what had happened.  But all of the sudden I am smack into a brand new year feeling a bit lost and all over the place.

So this year I am getting intentional and taking the time to savor the beautiful moments that the end of the year serves up.  A time to reflect and embrace what was and whats to come.  Moments to spend with family and loved ones.  Deep thoughts about dreams and desires for the new year.  And an even deeper appreciation for all that was.

I invite you to get intentional with me through daily emails arriving  Monday - Friday from December 2nd through January 3rd.  These emails will be filled with:

  • Inspirational stories and poetry
  • Gentle reminders to slow down
  • Quick exercises to ground you, and bring you back to the moment
  • Moments to reflect upon
You will not need any fancy supplies or equipment for these exercises.  A journal or little slip of paper will do, and your camera phone will help to capture some of the moments if you choose.  

Come join me as we savor the last of 2013.  

The cost of Heart Notes :: words to savor is only $30.  These words will provide you guidance on getting intentional, inspiration to seek out the beauty, and warm your heart as the year comes to a close. I would love for you to join me.  

Friday, November 01, 2013

what i know to be true

photo by: Thea Coughlin

Over the past 33 years I have been growing, expanding, and learning so much.  Here are 33 things I know to be true as I celebrate my own 33 years here:

1.  Life is so much more fun when you are surrounded by good friends and family
2.  Laughter heals.  Especially in those moments when we think we cannot laugh, me must.  Our hearts become lighter and the darkness doesn't feel so dark.
3.  Seeing the world through a four year olds eyes brings you back to the days when you thought you could do or be anything.  It is a good reminder to know that is still true if you are willing to go after it.
4.  Falling in love with someone you can travel with easily makes the adventures that much more sweet
5.  Using your voice in positive ways will take you further than you ever thought you could go
6.  If you want to make something happen, you have to begin
7.  Family is a sure thing in this world.  I know no matter what; I can lean on them, laugh with them, and create the most decadent memories
8.  Through travel one can learn some of life's best lessons and create the most savory memories
9.  We do not have to do it all alone.  Collaborating and working together with others enhances whatever it is you are creating
10.  Sunshine has the ability to fill your soul
11.  Running makes you stronger
12.  Showing up is half the battle.  When you show up time and time again, especially when you do not want to...celebrate that.  It is a big deal
13.  Having people you can share your story with is really important.  Not just anyone, but the ones that really get you
14.  True friends are rare. When you stumble upon them take the time to nurture the relationship
15.  You may not always love the work you do.  But you never know where it is going to lead you
16.  Showing your vulnerable pieces to others can have the ability to connect you in ways you never dreamed of
17.  There is so much you can learn about yourself when you live alone
18.  The experience of going away to college will teach you so much more outside the classroom
19.  Boyfriends will come and go, but one day when you finally figured out what you really want you will meet him and your life will be forever changed
20.  Taking time to discover what really moves you will fill you with happiness
21.  Dancing lifts your spirits no matter what mood you were in
22.  Lean deep into others, listen to what they say, and cultivate tender relationships
23.  To make big things happen you have to be willing to take a risk.  Leap!
24.  Going outside of your comfort zone will push you and help you to grow in immense ways
25.  Don't be afraid to say no.  And don't be afraid to say yes.
26.  Listen to what your heart really wants
27.  Supporting one another is so important, so very important
28.  Relationships with your siblings can bring you so much joy and laughter.  Nurture these relationships
29.  The dirty dishes and unmade bed can wait.  Now is the time to be fully present with the ones you love
30.  Don't worry about what others think of you.  Just be true to yourself and let that shine through
31.  A good pair of jeans is hard to find.  When you find ones that fit you, buy two!
32.  Twinkle lights make the world a better place
33.  Living big, bold, and beautifully is the only way to do it. So be silly.  Reach higher.  And go after your dreams

Monday, October 28, 2013

and then the moment came

And there it was
The moment you knew
That this life, yes this one
Was all yours
The choices that are to be made are yours alone
What others think does not matter
All that is of importance is your heart
Your happiness
And the love you share with others

So step into this bold beautiful world
Hold your heart in the palm of your hands
Seek out the adventure
Find the peaceful spots where you can dream
Have daring conversations with others
Invite those who are sacred enough into your heart space
And share your story
Live out loud
And never apologize for wanting to reach, grow, and be

Thursday, October 24, 2013

go in, deep

You have been telling yourself time and time again that you are a writer, artist, photographer. . .
You say it in your head
Whisper it, and even speak it out loud sometimes
But are you living it
Are you submerged in this life that you are claiming for yourself
Do not just speak it
Live it, breathe, be it
Jump so deeply in it so that it becomes the only way you know

Monday, October 14, 2013

showing up

When I was younger I ran track and cross country.  I tore Nike Ads out of magazines and hung them on my bedroom wall.  When I wanted to switch them out I would carefully peel them off the wall and tape them into a spiral notebook.  It was the beginning of my obsession with inspirational words and collage journaling.  I didn't even realize that until this moment.  I wish I still had that spiral notebook. I can still picture some of the ad's in my mind.

I have had a love / hate relationship with running.  On again, off again.  Getting talked into doing different runs then regretting actually saying yes.  My most recent dabble into running began because I go to the gym at work during lunch time.  In the winter it is great . . . gets me away from my desk for a bit.  But when the warm weather hit I longed to be outside.  So I put on my sneakers, grabbed my headphones, and headed outside for a run.  It was one of the best decisions I have ever made.

But beginning wasn't easy.  While I was running on constant replay in my mind was "I want to stop, I want to stop, I want to stop."  No matter how loud I turned up my music that soundtrack played on repeat.  But the warm sunshine and the fresh air kept bringing me back outside day after day.  Thank goodness for my obsession with sunshine.  It feels great to break up my day with a run and then head back inside to work.  I feel refreshed, and alive.

When I first started running again I wasn't as strong as I am now physically and mentally.  It took work and showing up day after day, even when I didn't want to show up.  Each step I take makes me stronger.  My mind hasn't played the "I want to stop" song in awhile, and that feels good.  To me running is a mind game.  Physically I can do it, but mentally I must work hard to get it done.

After I run I snap a photo to remind me that I can do it.  I can show up.  I can take the first step.  I can make it.  And I know that I will continue to get stronger.  But I must show up.

Where are you showing up these days?

Sunday, October 13, 2013

giggles from the couch

I am back with another edition of giggles from the couch.  Join me as I talk about showing up and using your voice.  

I would love to hear how you use your voice.  

Saturday, October 12, 2013

choosing your journey

Standing in the light
Soaking in the all the goodness that is washing over me
Feeling stronger than I have in a long time
This strength is coming from within
From trial and error
Falling down, and learning how to get back up
Leaning into the sunshine
Navigating my own path
Not following the lead others are taking
It is not always easy
But it is my journey
The one I choose to take

What journey are you choosing to take?

Monday, October 07, 2013


Leaning into trust
Trusting the process
The unknown outcome and built up expectations
Trusting that it will all work out, just as it should

Trusting the whisper that is telling me to keep stepping forward
Using my voice, embracing my dreams
Reaching, growing, shining

This word has been playing on repeat in my head
Trust, trust, trust

I am navigating this terrain of handing it over to the universe
Letting what may be, be
Loosing the grip
And enjoying the ride

Things are on unsteady ground
And we have no control over it
All we can do is show
And trust

Saturday, October 05, 2013

be open

You want to control it
You want to put reign it all in, align it perfectly into place
You want to know what the next step is gong to be

But here's the thing
It's not really up to you
You can make the most perfect plans
And they may crumble and fall apart
You may have to take a completely different path

But that is ok
This new course may lead you right where you need to go
You never know
And if you go kicking and screaming
You will not be able to enjoy it

So loosen your grips
Open your arms wide
Embrace what is coming your way
Walk into it
And be fluid in how you approach this change

This may end up being the best thing that has ever happened to you
You never know until you step into it
Step, one foot in front of the other
And keep on walking
Soaking in all that is unfolding

Monday, September 30, 2013

using my voice

When I first started filming videos for my Love Notes Special Delivery Class I went into a vulnerability hangover.  It was tough to see myself on camera.  I was used to blogging with words on a screen.  Seeing myself on camera and hearing my voice was a whole different ballgame.  

I have a soft spoken voice . . . thank goodness for microphones.  There are so many times I am not sure of myself when I speak.  I hold back and later regret not speaking up.  I am more comfortable showing up on the page.  

So I am challenging myself to use my voice more.  Show up in front of the camera and speak from the heart.   It is strange to see yourself on screen and hear your voice.  I have been analyzing every detail, but I show up.  

What is one thing you wish you were better at and know you could be better if you just tried?  I challenge you to give it a shot.  Show up and "just try."  Know that you have nothing to loose.  Come on, give it a try.  

Monday, September 23, 2013

vulnerability hangover

I am in the throws of a vulnerability hangover and it feels terrible.  I have been recording video for my online class Love Notes Special Delivery, and every time the camera is on these are the thoughts that roll through my head:

     *  I need a haircut
     *  I hate my hair
     *  Oh my goodness, my teeth are terrible who would possibly want to watch this
     *  My nose, its huge

There are so many outtakes of me making funny faces at myself because I can't get past how crooked my teeth are.  Or me sitting there messing with my  hair because it won't fall into place.  Seeing a photo of myself is one thing.  Watching myself speak on camera is a whole other ball game.

It is amazing how critical we are of ourselves.  Instead of embracing the beauty of the words that I am speaking I am highly focused on my teeth.  There are times I can't get past it.  I need to shut the camera off, and come back in five minutes.

It has been drilled into our heads that our worth is measured by our beauty and the size of our clothing.  But the fact is that is not true.  What matters is what is in our hearts, how we treat one another, the joy we bring to this world, and the support we provide during moments of sadness.  It does not matter if we have the most fashionable clothes or perfectly straight teeth.  What matters is that we are true to ourselves.  Loves those around us.  And embrace this one imperfect life that we are living.

Teaching this online class has been a lesson in showing up, imperfectly perfect.  Just as I am.  Crooked teeth and messy hair.  It has taught me time and time again to let the tape keep rolling, not worry about what I look like, but listen deeply to the words I am speaking.  It has been a challenge and a blessing.

Know this :: that you are beautiful, exactly as you are.

When those gremlins creep in trying to tell you otherwise, push them away and embrace the beautiful person that you are.

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

letters across the miles

I am not sure where to begin.  It was nice to receive your letter, but my heart is so heavy for the passing of your brother.  I could not even imagine what you and your family are going through.  Your life forever changed.  

Know that you are in my thoughts and I have been sending you so much love.  The road ahead will feel as if you are traveling all up hill.  You may feel lost and unsure where to turn.  Know that there are people out there, like me, who will sit right beside you.  Ready to hold your hand, listen to your stories, or just sit there with you in silence.  

It is in moments like this that we must lean on others, even when it feels difficult to do so.  Friends have a way of lifting us back up, holding us gently, and letting us just be.  Lean in deeply and know that you are loved and seen, even as you struggle through your pain and loss.    

There is nothing in this world like the bond that forms between family.  It is a love that never falters.  There will be disagreements. Moments where you do not get along.  But when it comes down to it you will always be there for one another.  

The love you have for your brother will live on in your heart and be expressed every day when you think of him.  He will always be with you.  Looking down, cheering you on, and watching you grow.  

Sending you so much love as you navigate through this and know that I am here for you.  


Thursday, September 12, 2013

Love Notes Special Delivery Sneak Peek

Sneak Peek Love Notes Special Delivery Sacred Gathering space

When I was younger Santa Clause brought me a teachers set for Christmas.  It included a bell, report cards, a lesson plan book, stickers, and all sorts of fun things that any aspiring teacher would need.  I played "school" with my brothers at the kitchen table.  When they wouldn't play with me I would have imaginary students and play alone in my bedroom.  I loved that teachers set, not so sure my brothers did.

Growing up I always wanted to be a teacher.  I taught preschool for a couple of years and loved it.  But life took me on a different trek and I ended up in the corporate world.  It is funny where we end up sometimes and usually it looks a lot different than we have dreamed.

The part of me that always wanted to be a teacher still lives deep in my heart.  I see it come out time and time again and my mind wanders to what life would be like if I was.  I never gave up on that dream even though now it looks very different than it looked when I was ten.

Beginning Sunday, September 15th - October 19th I will be in the virtual classroom.  Teaching about something that is near and dear to my heart, writing.  Writing is a life line for me.  A tool that helped me work through so many moments in my life and a tool that I turn to almost daily.  I am so grateful for the page.

In Love Notes Special Delivery, an online writing class, we will go on a journey to discover the healing powers of the page.  We will look at the stories we tell ourselves.  Take the pen into our own hands and rewrite some of those stories.  We will also give voice to the dreams that are living in our hearts.  And use our words to express the love and appreciate we have for those around us.

It is going to be an incredible journey.  All lessons will be delivered via email so that you have them forever.  There will also be a sacred space online where the lessons will live and a place where we can gather and share our writing.  I am so excited to be teaching this class and so grateful for the individuals who are coming along on the journey with me.

There is still time to join in this five week journey.  Head on over to HERE for some more details or simply jump on in and sign up.  I would love for you to join us.

Cost:  $49 USD

Sunday, September 08, 2013

we stand here

We stand here
Not always agreeing
Seeing things from our own perspective
But we stand here

We disagree
We fight
We laugh
We have the best time together
We don't always see eye to eye

But we know, no matter what happens
We always have each others back
We love one another
With the deepest kind of love
And we stand here
Heart open, love flowing, wanting the best for one another

Wednesday, September 04, 2013

taking the steps

It is not going to come to you
You must go out into the world and make it yourself
You will not find it ringing your doorbell, letting you know it has arrived
You must put in the hard work, take the time, figure it all out

It will not weaves its own tale for you
You are the one holding the pen and must write the stories of its adventure yourself
When you are standing around with your hands in your pockets hoping it will come
It will not be tapping you on your shoulder saying "hey, I am over here"

It will not arrive overnight
You must be patient, tend to it, never give up
Always take the next step
What we desire to accomplish can only happen when we go after it

It will not be handed to you in a neatly wrapped package
You will have to trudge through the mess, pull out the sparkling jewels
Tears may be shed
But there will also be moments of pure glee as you see it all unfolding from your tireless work

You must go after it
Never let it go
If you want it
You must create it

Thursday, August 29, 2013

slowing down :: sparkling and shining

I choose this moment to slow down
Soak in all the goodness that had unfolded the past few days
There was laughter, so much laughter
I feel more in love, deeper and deeper
We were on the move going from one thing to the next
Having so much fun

But here in this moment we paused
The warm are caressing our skin
The sun shining
Each of us looking around, counting our blessings
Grateful for this moment, for this trip, for each other
It was beautiful
No words needed to be said
We each felt the love, the gratitude, the beauty of the day

We stopped on the path
Snapped some photos
Smiled at one another
And knew
That the love we have is eternal
So easily we got along
So happily we dive deep into our time together
What we have is a rare gift and we appreciate it so very much

It is the ordinary moments in life
That make it extraordinary
And we must appreciate these moments
Slow down
Soak them in
Be right where we are
And be present to those we are with
It is in those simple moments that life sparkles and shines

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

the magic of the streets

The streets were filled with people coming and going.  Visitors from all over the world.  I was in awe.  A new place to explore.  New adventures unfolding right in front of us.

I had no expectations of San Francisco and we did not have many concrete plans of what we would do when we got there.  The only thing for sure on our agenda was to see two baseball games.  Other that we let the city guide us.

We walked a lot.  The streets opening up, inviting us to explore.  We ventured near the water and got drawn towards the music of the seals.  Old video games made us giggle and delicious restaurants invited us in.

We drew closer to one another.  Holding hands.  Telling old stories.  Sharing our hearts and ideas for the future.  We traveled far from home but felt closer than ever to one another.

Travel has a way bringing people together by opening them up new sites and possibilities.  Traveling is one of my favorite things to do and he is my favorite travel companion.  

Monday, August 26, 2013


"We travel, initially, to lose ourselves; and we travel, next to find ourselves.  We travel to open our hearts and eyes and learn more about the world than our newspapers will accommodate.  We travel to bring what little we can, in our ignorance and knowledge, to those parts of the globe whose riches are differently dispersed.  And we travel, in essence, to become young fools again - to slow time down and get taken in, and fall in love once more."  - Pico Iyer

I have just returned from San Francisco and Napa.  My heart is full.  My soul is happy.  More stories and images coming soon.  

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

take flight

Grab hold of your dreams
Take flight
Go where they guide you
Do not hold back
The world is ready for your next big adventure
What is it going to be?

Friday, August 09, 2013

love, together

There is beauty in our time spent together
Strolling along side by side
Not saying a word but soaking in our surroundings

There is beauty in the moments
The simple time spent together
He and I

These are the moments I love
Life together
Love flowing back and forth

There is magic in this dance
Of letting go, coming together
Merging and loosening

A life well spent
Laughter, smiles, adventure
A world opening its arms to us

Wednesday, August 07, 2013

gratitude, so much gratitude

Feeling so much gratitude in my heart
For this life
This moment
For getting here
It wasn't always easy, but it was always worth it
And along the way I was grateful for each step
Even when there was heartache and struggle
I was grateful to be feeling it
To be fully alive, standing on the edge
Seeking, striving, learning, knowing

And today I stand here
Stronger than I was then
Wiser, braver, and still learning
Each and every day
I show up
My heart on my sleeve, seeking out joy
Leaning into what moves me
Not holding back, but taking the leap and going for it
Grateful for the opportunity
And welcoming with open arms the unknown path

Sunday, August 04, 2013

standing tall in who you are

"She has a much more interesting life than we know about" I overheard them say.  "She writes and has even had something published in a magazine.  She host these writing workshops and is doing an online class.  I don't even know how someone does such a thing.  I never knew this about her."

What if we didn't hide our true passions
What if when someone asked us what we did instead of stating our corporate job we said what we really love doing

I am a writer and a teacher.  I place my thoughts and feelings gently down on the page and share them with the world.  I teach people how to feel comfortable with a pen and piece of paper and explore their own stories.

What if our resume wasn't filled with our college experience and corporate lingo, but rather what was living and breathing deep in our hearts
What if we claimed what we really truly were passionate about doing

What doors would it open
What opportunities would it bring

We will never know until we actually say it out loud
We must begin to speak our truth and not hide behind our fear

We must stand tall in what we love and let the world know it
Who are you when no one is looking

Stand up and tell the world

Friday, August 02, 2013

i believe in me and you

Sometimes we fall off course
Forget who we are and where we want to travel
We get swept away and lose sight of what we know to be true in our hearts

Has this ever happened to you?

Today lets stand in our light
Lets show the world who we are
And declare boldly that we believe in that person

Are you with me?

We all deserve the space to be who we are
That person is beautiful, rare, and a gift to this world
I believe in me, and I also believe in you

Stand up and share yourself with the world.  

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

letters across the miles

Dear Kristine,

Have you ever stood in a room of people and felt so incredibly alone?  Isolated even amongst the conversation.  Sad, unsure of who you really are?

As an introvert I struggle with casual conversation.  I want to get to the heart of it.  Pull out the meat and guts and examine them.  I want to know what is really beneath the surface.  Dig into the layers that so many of us keep hidden.

But that is not an easy thing to do upon first meeting someone.  It is hard for me to find the quiet space to have the conversation.  It takes time to develop the trust that is required for deep heart examination.

Sometimes the environment gets the best of me and swallows me whole.  Sinking deep into that invisible feeling.

Other times I rise above.  Standing firmly in who I am.  Seeking out someone to connect with, or removing myself from the situation all together.

It is a dance I have not yet mastered.  Still stepping on toes, unsure of when to take the lead and when to follow.

Have you ever felt this way?


Thursday, July 25, 2013

online class :: love notes special delivery

Ever since I was a little girl I kept a journal. Scribbling in it long into the night then tucking it safely underneath my mattress so that my brothers wouldn't find it. Those pages held all the thoughts of my latest crush, what I really thought about high school, and what I dreamed my life would be.  Showing up on the page was easy.  It never spoke back, never judged, and alway allowed me the space to just be.

This September I am embarking on a new journey with the page.  A five week adventure that I hope you will take with me.  Together we will explore how we hold ourselves back from showing the world our best selves.  We will send ourselves loving notes, and dig deep into the light that we shine in this world.  We will then take that love we have in our hearts and share it with those around us, and our community.  It is going to be a brilliant collaboration between ourselves and the blank page which will not stay blank for to long.

Each Monday - Friday a bit of inspiration, a story, an assignment, or creative adventure will arrive in your email mailbox.  Providing you the tools you need to begin your own relationships with the blank page.  A relationship that once forged will open door ways to your heart.

The page saved my life.  And I know if you give it a chance it could help you heal many pieces of your own heart.

Come along with me from September 15th - October 19th for Love Notes Special Delivery.  An online writing class that will open the door to your heart.  Together lets journey through different writing exercises and uncover the love that is deep in our hearts.

What:  An online writing class

Class Objective:  Learn how to show up to the blank page and not be intimidated to tell the stories that we have tucked into our hearts.  Discover the healing powers of writing by telling these stories, letting some of them go, and moving forward as our best selves.  

Where: Online, self paced class.  Lessons are delivered directly to your email box.  You are able to go at your own pace, go back to pieces that really resonate with you, and use the lessons over and over again.  

When:  Starting Sunday, September 15th  for five weeks

Why:  Because the page can save your life.  Opening your heart to writing can bring you back to yourself, help guide you in a new direction, and give you space to dream and grow.   

Cost:  $49 USD

Monday, July 22, 2013

washing over me

I was sinking into the unknown
Losing my way
Falling off course
Standing in the middle of despair, fear, and uncontrollable feelings
Trying to make sense of it all

I had no idea which way to turn
Was there a right course of action
Was one micro movement going to shift everything
Time spinning quickly
Getting thrown back into a past life

Where was I headed
What choice was I to make
Did I have any control over this
How would I ever know if I made the right one
Lost, lost, so very lost

I took to the streets
Long walks
Staring up at the stars
Allowing my inner light to guide me home
Finding my way back to center

And now I stand here
Neither moving forwards or backwards
Just still
In the moment
Letting it all wash over me

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

letters across the miles

Dear Kristine,

The hot days of summer have definitely shown it's face around NJ these past couple of weeks.  Bright sunshine, high humidity, and incredible sporadic thunderstorms.  Everything the summer is to be.  I am enjoying every minute of it.

I love hearing that you have a few things up your sleeve and have been soaking in your summer days as well.  That is what life is all about - - - enjoying the moments, scheming up ideas, and relaxing deep into the flow and movement that engulfs us.

I have been working diligently on my online class offering.  I love how it is coming together so organically.  The pieces fitting together and opening up parts of me that I didn't realize were still closed off.

One of the topics that came up as I was brainstorming ideas and putting thoughts down on paper for the class was - - - the opportunities we didn't take.  The moments we were to afraid to make that daring decision and instead stuck with the comfortable and familiar.  Those untaken chances haunt us.  Filling us with wonder regarding what could have been.

What is devastating is that we will never know what could have happened had we made a different decision, took the risk, spread our wings and trusted that we could fly.  That thought is sitting deeply with me these past few days.  And I am allowing it space to wash over me and breathe deeply into my soul.

Are there any chances that you didn't take that you wish you did?  Moments in time when you could have risked it all but when for the safe path instead?

Sending you so much love this letters across the miles tuesday.  I hope you are doing well and that the sun is shining brightly on your world.


Sunday, July 14, 2013

finding your own path

You had asked me not to feel sorry for you
And I do not

You are in control of your destiny
You are the one who chooses which path you go down
And which you do not

It is you who makes these bold choices
It is you who must seek out what makes you happy

You know that you must make yourself happy before you can find happiness with another

It is you who must do it all
You know you cannot rely on others

You know that you have to hone in your dreams
And then chase after them
But you also know that they must be your dreams and not someone else's

Sure, there were moments you fell apart
Bad decisions
Wrong roads taken

You have fallen more times than you can count
Your temper flailing
Your anger getting the best of you

But you see all of that now
And you are making the choice to carve your own path
To walk in the right direction

You are looking for help
You know you cannot go at it alone

You need support
And you are finding it

And you know now that you must step into yourself
With immense courage
And follow your heart

It is you who will carve the path to your happiness
It is you who will find exactly what you are looking for

And in my heart I know you will find it

It will not come over night
Nothing ever does
But it will come

And when it does you will be ready to celebrate it

Friday, July 12, 2013

fear of success

I sit here.  Ideas swirling one right after the other.  A mental task list quickly filling the notebook in my mind.  So easily the ideas come, and they are good.  I can feel it in my heart and soul.  Yet it is with much hesitation that I breathe life into them.

I am afraid of succeeding.
Terrified of actually making it happen.
Doubting myself.
Playing that evil comparison game.

I want to begin.  But instead I cook up another idea.  Add some more lines to my task list and head out for a run.

I am lacking the confidence in myself  to take the leap.  I am doubting that people will be interested in the passions that are in tucked into my heart.  I forget that I will attract those that do understand and speak the same language as me.

I am unsure how to find my way out of this hole I am digging myself into.  So I am doing what I know how to do; show up here and write about it.  It feels freeing to state my fear.  To have it down on paper to examine and dig deeper into.

The journey to getting through this begins with these words.

Monday, July 08, 2013


Together we go out and capture the world
Each catching things the other didn't see
A new angel
A different perspective
A site that was just around the corner that the other didn't turn down

It amazes me to see the beauty that we each capture
How different our views of the same place are
I go for the details
He dives into the bigger picture
Together we bring home something unique to ourselves

The world is an expansive space
Each of us finding our own way in it
Navigating, capturing, seeking, and finding
The roads we take are filled with possibility

The wheels in my head are spinning.  This may be the start to a little collaborative project between him and I.  Seeing what the other didn't see and sharing it here.  Hmm.  We shall see where this goes.

Tuesday, July 02, 2013

letters across the miles

Dear Kristine,

Happy Tuesday and almost Fourth of July!  I cannot believe that the fourth is already upon us.  Summertime always seems to fly by in a blink of an eye.  Do you have any plans for the Holiday weekend?  I absolutly love fireworks.  I am not sure where we will be seeing them, but am looking forward to the brillant colors in the sky. 

I love that you have been adding to your photography portfolio since you started working in Providence.  It is wonder that you are embracing your surroundings and really soaking them up.  All to often we run from one thing to the next, never really taking the time appreciate it.  But here you are, soaking it all in.  Fantastic! 

I took a big leap and opened the doors to my Etsy shop for the first time.  I can't belive I did but am so proud of myself for just doing it.  My writing, blog, photography, and work has all evolved so organically.  I love that.  Opening the Etsy shop felt like the next right step to take.  I am not sure where it will lead but am excited to see the path it opens me up to. 

When I was in high school I ran Cross Country and track, running the mile, half mile, and two mile.  Belthoff's do not have much speed so we have to stick to the distance events.  You should see my brothers run to first base when they play softball.   It is like they are running in slow motion. 

What I like about running is that it pushes my mind.  I know my body can make it up the hill, but it is my mind that is the challenge.  All it ever says to me is: "I want to stop, I want to stop."  But I must keep my legs moving and make it to the top.  It feels so good when I push through. 

I enjoy riding my bicycle more.  When I am on my bike my mind never even thinks the thought of stopping.  There is to much territory to explore.  To many new sites to see.  I want to peddle as far as I have time for.

I love excercising.  Moving my body, stretching my muscles, climbing higher than I thought I could go.  Excercise is such an amazing healer for the mind, body, and spirit.  I try to excercise five days a week but do not always get the chance. When I don't I feel it in me.  I become a bit sluggish, irritable, and craving the movment.  That is when I pick myself up and go for a walk.  Even a walk around the block refreshes me. 

I hope you have been enjoying your summer.  Please tell me what adventures you have been up to, what feeds your soul, and where you want to go to next. 

Sending lots of love your way from NJ!


Wednesday, June 26, 2013


There was a sense of hesitancy in her before she went back stage
I wasn't sure if she would dance or hide in the background
If I was her, I may have choosen the back ground
But she was FEARLESS

She got up there with confidence
I saw her bravely step into the moment
The light was on, and she shined
I was in awe

There was no second thought
No hesitancy
It was just her, in the moment

Remember when you didn't have that fear of what others thought?
Remember when you let loose, had fun, and just did it for the sake of doing it?
That is where she was
In the moment

Oh how I wish I could get back to that mind
The mind of believing in myself
Of letting go
Of not caring what others thought

She has it
And my hope is that she holds onto it for as long as she can
Because it is magic
And it is light

It is how we should all be
Dancing to the beat of our own drum
Letting go
And having the music guide us

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

finding my way

On wobbly legs I traveled to the land of the bean with him.  With each step I took the ground felt uncertain.  I wasn't sure where I was going or what my heart would encounter.  I was losing the path I had been traveling on, but I boarded the plane anyway.

This new city greeted us both with sunshine.  We made our way to Millennium Park where he slept off the early morning flight and I wandered around.  Notebook in hand I found a cozy spot to write and spilled my words onto the page.  Opening up, letting go, releasing the fear and worry.  Within that park I stumbled upon my path, finding my way again.

I felt the weight of the worry lift from my shoulders.  This whole time I knew where I was going, I was just fearful of losing my way.

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

letters across the miles

Dear Kristine,

Oh how the time has flown since our last letter to one another.  I apologize for not writing to you last week.  I was off in the land of the bean and I had a letter in the queue to go, but it never published.  Such is technology some times.

This time of year is filling my soul with sunshine and happiness.  I have been riding my bicycle and have gotten back into running.  I am scheduled to run a 5k in July and I want to be ready for it.

I have been thinking a lot about the choices we make and how even one small choice can change our lives forever.  We never know the outcome of what we choose until we choose it.  We have to trust our heart, take a leap, and see where the path opens up to.  People ebb and flow into our lives constantly and others stick around for a long while.  We never know upon meeting someone if the moments we have together will be fleeting or last a long long time.

Because of this, I am learning each day to appreciate the moments.  To soak in the sunshine, the flower blooming, the quick encounter at the grocery store when the gentleman let me go ahead of him.  It is the small things that make a big difference and we never know when those small things will happen.

There are so many different ways we can touch others lives.  Have you ever heard of the Warrior Canine Connection (WCC)?  They are a Non-Profit Organization from Maryland that raises and trains Golden and Labrador retriever puppies that will be placed with disabled Veteran's as Mobility Service Dogs.  Before the dogs go to a disabled Veteran WCC works with Soldiers suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) who train the puppies.

My Aunt Alice, who is a total dog lover introduced me to the organization.  They have a live puppy came that you can watch online and see the nine new puppies that were just born about two weeks ago.  I warn though watching them can become addictive because they are so darn cute.  Even for me who isn't an animal lover checks in on the cam to see how big they have grown.

The organization has been entered into the Veterans Charity Challenge where they could win up to $35,000 to put towards raising and training the dogs.  I have been to WCC and was amazed.  They are a top notch organization doing everything they can from their hearts to help these wounded Veterans and Soldiers with PSTD.  These men and women have given up so much for our country and they need our help.

If you know anyone that would be interested in donating they can head on over to HERE to make a donation.  No amount is to small because as I have learned through this blogging community when we come together in our own small ways we can make big things happen.  The contest is running until July 3rd and all the money that is raised goes to WCC, so it is a win win.

I love the power of the internet and how we are able to help one another so easily.  It is such a beautiful and strong thing.

I hope you are doing well in your part of the world and that the summer has been treating you kindly.  What have you been up to?

Sending you so much love and looking forward to hearing back from you.