Thursday, November 26, 2009


I am so thankful today for many thinks including but not limited to ...

* This warm sunny day that I have been blessed with
* Spending time with my family, they always bring a smile to my face and make me laugh
* Having such fun and wonderful parents, brothers, and sister in laws
* My studio apartment which houses my creativity and dreams and shelter's me
* Being healthy to ride mile after mile on my bicycle
* The amazing people I have met through this community and the incredible support they give me
* Being able to put thoughts and feeling into words down on paper
* Working ~ with people that are kind and having someone to spend lunch with
* The sound and smell of the ocean ~ it calms me, brings me back, and reminds me to feel
* For having the opportunity to experience, feel, and truly enjoy all that is around me
* For being aware of life and living it

What are you grateful for today?

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

. . .

Yet not sure where I am going
The fog and haze are settling in
I can feel the darkness surrounding me
Engulfing me
I am unsure of how to break free
Tears stain my cheeks as I push on
The feeling of defeat washes over me

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

If we never meet

What if we never meet?
Where will my soul end up traveling?
Will it continue to search over vast oceans,
or will it silently give up and fade away?
Will my mind and heart lose that drive,
or will it simply accept that is the path I am destine for?
What if we never meet?
Will I still be me?

Thursday, November 12, 2009


New Paltz, NY

Sometimes it is not what is in front of you that is important
But what is in the background, that you do not pay attention to that really matters

Monday, November 09, 2009


New Paltz, NY

While hiking on Sunday I was flooded with the thought "I really want to be strong, I really want to be strong, I really want to be strong." This thought consumed me. I thought about how this is the moment in my life to make myself strong.

But what does strong mean? I thought back to manzanita, and how I learned that one word can mean something so different to someone else than what it means to me. Words hold their own meanings in all of our hearts based on where we are in life in that particular moment.

Currently strong means to me:
  • the willingness to put myself out there, be bold and brave
  • facing the challanges in front of me with grace
  • feeling confidant and comfortable in my own skin
  • fully embracing what I love and going for it
  • physically feeling fit and healthy
  • reaching out and asking for help when I need it
I want to feel strong and face this life head on.

Saturday, November 07, 2009


Ramapo Reservation, NJ

Last night while lying in bed all sorts of incredible thoughts came to my mind
Beautiful words, one right after the other
I begged my mind to remember them
Hoping that when I woke up in the morning they would be there
Waiting patiently for me to write them down
It seems that words, thoughts, and ideas are not as patient as I had hoped
They escaped into the night
Running off leaving me to wonder if they will ever return again

Thursday, November 05, 2009


Heart shaped surprise, New Paltz NY 

When the clocks change 
I change
The darkness nudges it's way into my mind
Pulling me down
Sucking the motivation out from inside me
And watches me struggle until the end of March

The winter is always a difficult time for me
I am going to try my hardest to be positive
and not let the darkness unveil it's evilness on my soul.  
I am going to seek out the beauty of what is around me
Taking note in what I am appreciative for
Pushing myself to smile more
And reaching out for a hug more often than I usually would

Today I am so grateful for:
* * No frost on my car this morning
* * The sun shining and the coldness staying away for the day
* * The thrill inside that arises when watching the NY Yankees
* * Lunch with a new friend
* * Finding something I have been looking for, for a long time

What are you grateful for today?  

Wednesday, November 04, 2009


Take it all in
Everything that surrounds you
Look around and see the beauty
Listen the little voices calling to you
Taste the goodness that comes
From following your heart  

Sunday, November 01, 2009


New Paltz, NY

Around my heart a space is held
for all thing beautiful, brave and loving
This space is filled with magic
and a dancing sparkle
Lighting me up from the inside
and radiating beauty from my eyes
I never thought I would be in this space
Feel this full
Experience the comfort of my own skin
I have evolved into a beautiful woman
Strong, tender, and compassionate
Sharing the truth of my story with those around me
Brilliantly brave
Wisdom emulating out of me