Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Sunday, October 29, 2006
November 30th the lease to our apartment is up. That is our last day here. I am really sad about that and also feel really lost. I love this apartment. I love the location. I love the pool. I love being here. It is just two expensive. I feel like all our money goes to rent and I want to be able to do more, like take vacations. We started to look for other apartments but everything in this area is expensive and it is already taken. Looking for a studio but those are hard to come by. I do feel confidant that we will find something but at the same time, a month goes by extremly fast. I feel blind about what the future holds and about where we will be. Please send me lucky thoughts to find a place.
Sunday, October 22, 2006
While exploring the internet I found and individual who keeps a "well being checklist". A list of the ten most important things which she needs during her day. This inspired me to keep my own checklist. The idea is to accomplish at least seven out of the ten and to have a weekly average of 70%.
However what would be my ten most important things which I want - - need, from my day. What do I need? I have given it a lot of thought and have come up with eight. Here they are with two more to come:
"My well being checklist"
At least eight good solid hours of sleep, waking up no later than ten a.m.
A video, going to the gym, a hike, a bicycle ride, tennis, a walk. Anything to keep me active and going
3. Eating well
Consuming healthier things other than chocolate and cereal. Actually taking the time to cook.
Enjoying a good laugh through reading something, hearing something, talking with someone, or through a media device.
5. Personal connections with others
Not just going through life blindly but truly connecting with others.
6. Creative Time
Time spent doing creative things. Playing the keyboard, creating something, taking photos.
Time spent enjoying reading.
Time spent learing something new.
So I still have to come up with two more. Two more things I need each day. I want to begin this checklist and keep up with it. I want to be dedicated to myself. My spirit, my growth, and my potential. The journey is only begining. I know it will be a long journey with many bumps in the road. But I am willing to try it. I turn twenty six soon. And as scary as it is for me to say the words twenty six it is exciting. And the adventure is just beginning.
How come these things can never be easy
Why do we tend to forget the wonderful things
They cloud our minds
What about the times when we were happy
Where did that go?
Could such a thing just be washed down the drain?
or fading into the background
How does one keep the good times close?
Friday, October 20, 2006
I enjoy intelligent conversation.
Hearing about current events.
Listening to others talk.
However my heart years for more.
I like to understand the "why."
I want to know why people do the things they do.
I also yearn to know what really interest someone.
Not the basic things like television shows or music,
but what really makes their heart run wild.
I want to know about goals, dreams, and desires.
Who they really are as a person.
What they really want to accomplish.
Not only with others, but with myself.
I want to understand why I do the things I do.
Why I care about the things I do.
Why I am here
and what I really want to accomplish.
It will be a journey,
difficult at times
but in the end I know it will be worth the pain.
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
I am not a fan of the telephone
You will never catch me having long phone conversations,
and if you do it is against my will.
When the phone rings I seldom answer it
I also seldom look to even see who is calling.
If it is important they will leave a message,
and then I have the choice to call back--If I want.
I do not have a phone in my apartment.
No need for two telephones if I do not even answer the one I do have.
Remeber the days though when you did not know who was calling.
You picked up the phone and it was a surprise as to who was at the other end.
That made aswering the phone fun,
you never knew what you were going to get.
Now the days of caller id has changed that.
You always know who is on the other end.
It has become real easy to avoid people.
I would much rather meet in person,
talk face to face.
The phone is so impersonal.
I try to make my phone conversations as short as possible.
Often avoiding talking about everything, and giving the shortest possible answer.
Granted my cell phone has come in handy, many times
But I coudl have figured it out without the security of the phone.
I possibly would have had an adventure if things weren't so simple.
And there is nothing wrong with a good adventure.
Does anyone else feel this way?
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
The ability to choose
the ability to dream
the ability to laugh and smile
and do what makes me happy
The choice is there
A beautiful day makes me happy
A sunset makes me smile
I can see my laugh lines when I look in the mirror
My eyes reflecting my every emotion
The world is in the palm of my hands
Weighted only by the weight of my own heart
At times it feels extremly heavy,
other times it is as light as air
The feeling of the sand under my feet
The smell of salt in the air by the ocean
The sound of the waves crashing up on the shore
The simplicity of it all
The choice is there
To dream big dreams
To live the happiness
To feel fulfilled
To be who I am, all of me!
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Can you imagine the changes ahead
The difference in how things will be
Are you ready for this
For this enormous change
Where are you going to go
Will you be happy there
Is that what you really want
What if you make the wrong decision
What if you regret what you have done
What if you made the right decision
What if you are happier than you imagined
The decision is in your hands
Don't fret to much
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Friday, October 06, 2006
You knows those online surveys they send around. Usually I never answer them...today is the exception.
*While driving down the road, and looking for an address, do you turn the radio down?
Yes, because the music hides the numbers.
*Pretend you are a really good cook, what meal would you make?
Whatever I was in the mood for because I could cook anything. Currently that would be pizza!
*What is your favorite piece of clothing in your closet?
There is not much to choose from, but I would have to go with my brown flip flops
Because I love wearing sandles
*If you could quit your job right now, and be anything you wanted, what would it be?
A school teacher
*What do you think of when you look at the stars?
How big the sky is and how amazing it is that no matter where you are in the world that is one thing that will always be there. They sky will always be above you.
*When you add someone into your cell phone, do you use there real name, or there nickname?
I use whichever name will help me to remember who they are.
*If you use there real name, do you add there last name?
Only if that is what I call them inside my head.
*If you could say ONE THING to the president, what would it be?
What are you thinking??
*Would you ever get a personalized license plate?
Only if I could think of something clever enough to put on it. In other parts of the country personalized license plates are are a big thing, right sara.
*If yes, would would it say?
I have not thought of anything clever enough yet
*Before you go to sleep at night, what do you think of?
What I need to do the next day and what is going on in my life
*How many times do you change clothes in one day?
Probally three times
*If you were just getting home from drinking at 2 am and you were hungry, would you eat? If yes, what?
If I could find something to eat. There is usually not much food in my cuboards
*What is favorite thing to do on a night out with friends?
Just hang out and talk
*Lets say you can't find 2 socks that match will you wear 2 different ones?
*Do you like to get flowers?
I love to get flowers. In highschool three years in a row someone sent me flowers on my birthday from a secret admirer. To this day I have no idea who sent them. I would love to know.
*So you are driving and a squirrel runs in front of your car, do you swerve?
*Women - Have you or would you take your husband's last name?
I would, but I will still miss Belthoff
*Do you prefer older or younger partners? Or do you not care about age?
I tend to go for older, but that is not always the case
*Favorite salad dressing?
I am not a big salad fan
*You get to change one thing about yourself, what is it?
My voice. It wish I sounded more confidant
*What band can you say you like every song they make?
Jack Johnson. I love him!
*What was the last song you had stuck in your head?
Upside down by Jack Johnson
*Are you allergic to anything?
Not that I know of
*Would you rather get a letter in the mail, or an email?
A real letter in the mail. It is nice to have more than just bills.
*Suppose someone comes up to you on the street claiming to know you from way back; but you don’t remember them. Do you go along with them or ask them who they are?
Oh this has happened. And I just go along with it. But then I wonder if they knew that I really had no idea who they were.
*Have you ever had to be taken to the Hospital?
All the time as a kid. For some reason I was very clumsy.
- 4th grade teacher's name:
Mrs. Conti. And that was the year I got a perm in my hair. Oh how funny!!
- Last song you sang:
Upside down by Jack Johnson. I am still singing it now in my head
- Last person you hugged:
- Last thing you laughed at:
Chester. The conversation went like this:
Chester: I am terrible with names, what is your name again
I was histerical. And I wanted to say to him: "I am sorry I am terrible with names to is your name Chester, then he would say John, and I would say Chester." It would have been classic.
- What color socks are you wearing:
I am not wearing any. I love flip flops, remember
- What's under your bed:
- What time did you wake up today:
11:30, what a lazy bum am I.
- Current Taste:
What ever clothes I have in my closet. Although slowly but surely I am trying to find a sophisticated style. Something to take me int o my teaching carear
- Current hair:
The longest I have ever had it my whole life.
- Current annoyance:
I want to have better posture. Yet I tend to go back to not standing up straight.
- Current longing:
For my apartment to be clean with the snap of my fingers, and for it to be warm out again. I hate the cold!!!
- Current desktop background:
A picture of Christian
- If you could be any instrument what would you be:
The piano, because I really want to learn how to play it.
- Favorite color(s):
I love the color blue, and I tend to wear brown all the time. My nickname seems to be "brown lady"
- How tall are you:
Five six I think.
- Current favorite word/saying:
"darlin" with an accent. Yet I only let myself say it in my head.
- Favorite Show:
The Ellen Show. Who doesn't like to dance and laugh??
- favorite season:
- What is your career going to be like:
Fun. I am goign to be a teacher, surrounded by little kids who look up to me. I will get to color, and paint, laugh, and play.
- How many kids do you want :
I used to want ten but I would love to have three or four.
*HAVE YOU EVER...*
- Said "I love you":
- Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc?:
No, I don't have any pets
- Have you ever been to New York:
- Been to Florida:
Oh the Florida Keys, how fun!!
- Been to California:
I drove to there from New Jersey. And met so many funny people and have so many wonderful memories.
- Been to Canada:
Orientation for Ramapo College. Not sure why we went there to be oriented to Ramapo. But going away with a bunch of people I never met before in my life was a great expereince. Although it was freezing there.
- Been to mexico:
Not yet, but I definitly plan to get there.
- Been to Europe:
- Been to Australia:
- Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day?:
My dreams sometimes feel so real that I feel like I am dreaming about something that happened already, but I don't really remember it happeneing. Then I wasn't sure if it actually did happen or if it was just a dream. Got it?
- What book are you reading now?:
I tend to read a couple of books at the same time. Currently I am reading:
Eat, Love, Pray by Elizabeth Gilbert. (I highly recommend it.)
Three Weeks with my Brother by Nicholas Sparks
Romeo and Juliet for class
The Jeruselum Bible for class
- Where is it?:
The first two on the side of my bed, and the other two on my desk or in my bag
- What is the first thing you think when you wake up in the morning:
Go to the bano
- How many rings before you answer:
My cell phone depends upon where it is but usually the machine takes the call
At work I love answering the phone
At my parents house never. No one even moves when the phone rings
- Future daughter's names:
No idea. All the names I used to like have been ruined by meeting people with these names
- Future son's names:
Same problem as with the girls names
- What do you wear to sleep in:
- Where are you:
At the computer at my desk
- Where do you wish you were?:
- What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use:
I switch it up all the time. Currently I think it is Pantenee
- Who is the last person that called you:
Kathleen left a wonderful message how I am going to get arthritis
- Where do you want to get married:
On la playa
- If you could change anything about your life what would it be?:
That I was better with money
- Been In Love:
- Are you timely or always late:
Usually exactly on time or a few minutes late
- Do you have a job:
Indeed I do
- Do you like being around people:
Usually, but I also cherish my alone time
- Best feeling in the world:
Watching the sunset
- Are you a health freak:
If you concider chocolate a health food them I am the healthiest person around
- Do you have a "Type" of person u always go for?:
- Are you lonely right now:
- Do you want kids:
I think so
THE LAST WEEK, HAVE YOU...
- Cried :
Not that I can remember
- Bought something:
Some paper to use for my traveling journal
- Gotten Sick:
Absolutly. I sing every day. And when it is not out loud ususally a song is singing my head
- Said I Love You:
- Talked to someone:
- Had a serious talk:
- Missed Someone:
- Hugged Someone:
- Kissed Someone:
Monday, October 02, 2006
I was recognized today
By two people from long ago
I used to play kick ball with them,
draw smiley faces,
and enjoy the summer.
They made me smile.
And today they made me smile a great big smile,
when the recognized me.
That was always a question I had,
the children I worked with would remember me?
These two boys did:) !!
What a great joy to know that someone remembers you!