Friday, October 29, 2010

estoy listo

beach writing, nags head NC

I walk in the door to my apartment
The quietness engulfs me
It reminds me that I am alone
This reminder of being alone
Is packed full with intense emotion

At times I embrace the silence
It allows me the opportunity to dig deep into my thoughts
Create beautiful things with my hands
And connect with myself

But there are moments when that stillness is deafening
Feelings of isolation surface
A longing for connection swirls inside me
And tears fill my eyes

A constant tug back and forth
Elation and heartache

I cherish the solitude
But souls simply grow better when they are together
Each one reflecting back the others brilliance
Balancing and nudging the other forward
Lifting them up and holding their hand

For awhile I was not ready to embrace love
I needed to venture down my own path
Even though I was unsure of what that was
I stumbled and I fell
But I learned how to pick myself back up

The lessons that came my way were not always easy
But they were powerful
And opened my eyes up to the beauty in telling the truth

I feel confident in myself
Sure of the steps I am taking
And I am ready to not only give love
But to receive it in return

"souls just grown better together" ~ paraphrased from Elizabeth

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Squam by the Sea

Nags Head NC ~ squam by the sea

My heart is full
and so filled up with love
I spent four marvelous days in Nags Head NC
Soaking in the magic that happens at squam arts workshops
I was seen for who I am by others
And for the very first time truly saw myself
I am a writer, what a glorious thing to realize


These are just a few of the words that describe what it is like being surrounded by the most radiant women and engulfed in their love. There is something so powerful about women coming together. Souls supporting one another, truly seeing one another, and reflecting back what we see to each other. Magic. Pure love and magic.

My world is a little bit brighter these days
Beauty surrounds me
And happiness fills my heart

Thank you squamettes
For being brave
Following the bat signal
And traveling to the sea
I cannot imagine my life without you

Sending you my love xoxo

Monday, October 25, 2010

To see clearly

Mindy's beautiful ring. Nags Head, NC ~ squam by the sea

She had to look through
Someone else's eyes to see clearly
She needed them to reflect
Back what they saw

She did not see it in her
She did not even know it was their

It was the vision of another
That opened her up to herself

Without them looking
She never would have
Saw it
Without their eyes
Hers would still be closed

Friday, October 15, 2010

Precious Moments

Last year this time I was on the Oregon Coast
Surrounded by the most amazing women
Each one so talented, so brave,
So willing to open up and share themselves

It was a moment in time that is forever etched in my heart
And since then I have not been the same

We stood along side one another
Held each others hands
Gave each other space to grow
We were present in the moment
And with each other

We learned how precious sisterhood really is
And we felt the power that happens when women come together
We laughed
We cried
We opened each other up
And held the space for one another

Even though a year has flown by
This sisterhood has remained strong
Support and love swirls through this group

My eyes well up with tears
When a candle is lit
A prayer is said
A hug is given
And a cheer is sung from the mountain tops

Even if it is virtual
It is filled with deep meaning

Thank you scarf sisters
For being exactly who you are
For spreading your wings
And soaring
The journey you are on is precious
And I am so lucky to watch it all unfold

Thursday, October 14, 2010

so lucky!

My heart feels full
So incredibly full

I am surrounded by love
Encircled by people who support me
Cheer me on
And truly want to see me shine

How did I get so lucky?

I am amazed and in awe
Of all the love that swirls around me

Each kind word cracks my heart open a little more
Every high five brings a smile to my face
A knowing glance
A warm embrace
All of these things fill me up

How did I get so lucky?

I stand here
My soul overflowing with joy
An enormous smile on my face
Grateful for each encounter

I am so lucky in this life
And so appreciative for the chance to experience it

Thank you universe!

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

I stand here

I stand here
In an unknown city
Falling deeply into myself

There are parts of me that hurt
Pieces that feel broken
But I stand here

I stand here
Submerging myself into the moment
Refusing to answer any questions

Because it is here where I belong
Traveling down my path
So I stand right here

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Thursday, October 07, 2010

thank you

I stand here
In the middle of all of this
Thinking of those I love
My heart is full
With emotions that are impossible to express

I am so lucky
That seems to be the only way to describe it
So very lucky

I stand here feeling blessed
For everyone that I have encountered in my life
The friendships that have developed deep over time
The brief encounters of strangers passing by
And my family who has stood beside me through it all

The moments of laughter that have filled up my soul
And the tears that have fell from eyes because I dug deep and let myself go

I am grateful for all of these things
And grateful for everyone in my life

It is theses moments
And each individual
That make my life so special

Thank you for coming into my life
Touching my soul the way you have
Because of you I have smiled more
And felt the beauty of life

Sunday, October 03, 2010

Showing up

I show up here 
because it is food for my soul
A space for my mind and heart 
to purge all the contents that are swirling around

I show up here
because I know no other way
This page is a canvas for me to paint my words on
A blank slate to open up into

I show up here
because it is here that I feel seen
I am freely able to express my thoughts, ideas, and feelings
With unwavering support from others

I show up here
because it allows me the ability to connect 
with myself and with others
It is here that I know I am not alone

I show up here
and I am so glad that you show up as well

Thank you for every time you visit
And for each comment you make
Reading what you have to say lights me up inside
I see you, in all your beauty

I show up here 
to feel the connection we all have
We are never alone, ever