Saturday, December 18, 2010

"i'm better for it"


I have been holding onto a story deep inside
Playing it on repeat in my mind
Ashamed for the decision I had made
Guilt clouded over my perception of who I was

Until I got brave
I told my story
I wrote it out of me
Guilt, shame, sadness, fear, loneliness, heartache
I gave all of these feelings a voice
Pieces of my wounded heart began to heal
I was finally able to see clearly again
I learned that I am not my past decisions
Yes, they are a part of me
But they do not define me
I am much more than the choice I made
I am worthy of love
I am capable of love
I do not need to be afraid

I shared the truth of my story
The messy parts
The ones we tend to not want others to see
In doing so I healed my soul
Forgave myself for my mistakes
Showed compassion for the situation
And now I can breathe a little bit easier
The weight I was carrying around has been let got

If you would like to read my story you can find it here over on my dear friend Kolleen's blog ~ Heartwing Sisters.  I am so grateful for her giving me the space to share my story.  "I'm Better For It" is a beautiful collaboration of real stories from the heart where people share what is they are better for going through.

8 comments:

Happy Mama (Lisa Gonzalez) said...

Much love to you Jennifer. Thank you for bravely sharing your story. You are a beautiful and kind woman and I'm so glad to know you, even in this limited capacity.

I also made a horrible decision at one time. It brought shame, and sadness to my heart. It took me a long time to heal and move on but now I can say "I'm better for it".

Happy Holidays,
Lisa

Kelly Lish said...

You did good sweetie!

stefanie renee said...

sweet beautiful soul - thank you for sharing all your pieces with us, you are a brave soul!

xo

Kolleen said...

i love you.


period.

ox
k

Ella said...

I am so glad you shared and lifted the burden from your heart~ Your pain has enabled you to write and through this, beauty arrived. This gift can now, help others!
Brave girl you have much love to give! xXx

Unity Stamp Company said...

i love this. love it so very much. YOU are very BRAVE.

K8 said...

good for you for sharing your story! I'm sure that it feels better each time you breathe a sigh of forgiveness into your heart

Scamp (aka Shirley) said...

Your words are powerful, and I'm sure that you know that you are not alone. Hugs to you!