Saturday, December 18, 2010

"i'm better for it"


I have been holding onto a story deep inside
Playing it on repeat in my mind
Ashamed for the decision I had made
Guilt clouded over my perception of who I was

Until I got brave
I told my story
I wrote it out of me
Guilt, shame, sadness, fear, loneliness, heartache
I gave all of these feelings a voice
Pieces of my wounded heart began to heal
I was finally able to see clearly again
I learned that I am not my past decisions
Yes, they are a part of me
But they do not define me
I am much more than the choice I made
I am worthy of love
I am capable of love
I do not need to be afraid

I shared the truth of my story
The messy parts
The ones we tend to not want others to see
In doing so I healed my soul
Forgave myself for my mistakes
Showed compassion for the situation
And now I can breathe a little bit easier
The weight I was carrying around has been let got

If you would like to read my story you can find it here over on my dear friend Kolleen's blog ~ Heartwing Sisters.  I am so grateful for her giving me the space to share my story.  "I'm Better For It" is a beautiful collaboration of real stories from the heart where people share what is they are better for going through.

8 comments:

Lisa G said...

Much love to you Jennifer. Thank you for bravely sharing your story. You are a beautiful and kind woman and I'm so glad to know you, even in this limited capacity.

I also made a horrible decision at one time. It brought shame, and sadness to my heart. It took me a long time to heal and move on but now I can say "I'm better for it".

Happy Holidays,
Lisa

Kelly Lish said...

You did good sweetie!

stefanie renee said...

sweet beautiful soul - thank you for sharing all your pieces with us, you are a brave soul!

xo

Kolleen said...

i love you.


period.

ox
k

Ellen aka Ella said...

I am so glad you shared and lifted the burden from your heart~ Your pain has enabled you to write and through this, beauty arrived. This gift can now, help others!
Brave girl you have much love to give! xXx

Angela said...

i love this. love it so very much. YOU are very BRAVE.

K8 said...

good for you for sharing your story! I'm sure that it feels better each time you breathe a sigh of forgiveness into your heart

Scamp (aka Shirley) said...

Your words are powerful, and I'm sure that you know that you are not alone. Hugs to you!