Saturday, December 11, 2010

a feeling



I feel that there is something bigger inside me. Something that I cannot seem to place my finger on. A feeling of having a grander purpose. A bigger meaning. Finding a way to make a difference. Yet here I am sitting still. Going no where fast.

I can feel the stirring inside me. The pull that tells me where I am and what I am doing is only for this moment. There is something else out there for me. There is something my heart yearns for. A different road to travel down.

But what is this thing? What something is it that I am being pulled blindly towards? I feel like I am in a dark room. Trying to find my way to the door yet unsure if a door even exist.

This pulling. This stirring. This feeling. This knowing of something more. All of it is there. But what is the something?

9 comments:

Ellen aka Ella said...

I feel the same way, which direction do I go in, to find the door. Which way do I lean. I have this similar feeling meant for more. The door does exist, we just need to plan how to reach it! xXx

Karen D said...

I struggle with the also Jennifer.. it is so hard for me to just be in each moment and not worry about the future.. keeping you in my thoughts.. may we both see that we are right where we are meant to be and everything is happening just as it should.

Karen

beth said...

that "thing" is just part of your journey....enjoy the ride...

ELK said...

reading through this a couple of times I think that it may be an exciting journey beginning!!

Gloria said...

Maybe a book..an amazing poetry infused life filled book full of jenns passions...

K8 said...

I totally hear you! And in those desperate moments I wonder if I will EVER figure it out...but I have to believe that I will. For myself, I'm realizing that trying to think "it" out isn't working...that I need to pick one thing, try it, and if it's not "it" then I try again. Make sense? :) We're in it together. :)

patty said...

Well, some days I still feel this way... that I haven't yet discovered "it", but most days I am starting to get that being present and open to each moment while continuing to do the things I love and am passionate about is "it". "Wanting what we have is the key to one of the secrets of life". Amanda Cross
I know. Easier said than done!!

elizabeth said...

I am curious with you (for you)! Enjoy the ride!

I felt this for years - so strongly that I couldn't stand it and didn't know what to do. Now that the feeling is gone, it turns out it was something I was doing all along; I just didn't know it or know how to articulate it. Somehow that made all the difference.

Jane said...

I've felt the same feeling every single day for years and years now. Sometimes I wish there was a map or a crystal ball to show us the way. But then again, if we had those tools to make it easy we wouldn't learn all the things about ourselves along the journey.