Monday, March 15, 2010

Silence

Ramapo Reservation ~ taken with you

Silence has filled the space between you and I
Until that day when we ran into one another
You pose the standard question to me
"How are you?"
Respectfully you pause just long enough to hear the standard answer
"Good"
I say

Such a silly question for a moment like this
After all we have been through
This is what it comes down to

The words that tumble out of my mouth do not even matter
I could have said my world was falling apart
I am being ripped at the seams
You would have offered your condolences
A kind glance
Then you would turn and walk away
Silence engulfing me as your footsteps faded down the hallway

Or I could have said that my life is great
Things haven't been better
I am filled with joy and happiness
You would nod your head
And kindly say "great to hear"
Then you would turn and walk away
Silence engulfing me as your footsteps faded down the hallway

You would not celebrate my success with me
or comfort me in my sorrow
No matter what my reply was to your question
You would still turn around and walk away

It may have been best
If you never asked the question at all
If you just nodded and said "Hi Jen"
Like all the other times we passed each other in the hall
Then silence would not engulf me as you kept walking
Right down the hall

4 comments:

valerie said...

jennifer,

today, you managed to capture such a universal moment, thoughts i know that i have had, things i was dying to utter. thank you!

how can you, for even a moment, question whether you are a writer or not? YOU ARE A WRITER!

beth said...

I've been in this position before...exactly as your words described.....

and next time it happens, maybe I'll just turn and say nothing at all....

but if I saw you, I'd say, "hey, let's go eat cupcakes and dance and leave silly notes on the benches at the bus stops, K ?"

chrissy said...

your friend beth above sounds lovely.
of course...YOU would have a lovely friend like that.
and
whoever is the "you" in this post...
the one who passes you in the hall...
the one who replaced the space between you with silence...
the one who obviously doesn.t know what they are giving up by not embracing Y O U...
i feel sad for them.
sad that they can.t continue to be touched and lifted by my friend (and so many others) jennifer.
you, my dear,
are
a
blessing.
loves to you.

Kolleen said...

ooooh i second everything beautiful Chrissy said above...this "you" is missing out....REALLY missing out.

you are one of those rare gems in life that anyone who is fortunate enough to get to have you in theirs...should thank their lucky stars.

you are a treasure my sweet and i love you dearly....and i want to go with you and beth to eat cupcakes and dance and leave silly notes on the bus benches!!!! whoo hoo...what fun that would be!

xoxox
you are loved
k