Love Thursdays: Mi Vida

Christian and I have been together for a little over three years, or so we think. Neither of us really know for sure. However one thing we know for sure is that we both love each other dearly. Come on how could you not love someone who goes on adventures with you and has such wonderful eyes and beautiful face.

Te amo. Deseo pasar mi vida contigo.

Just what I needed...

Winter days were bringing me down and dragging me through the mud. Depression was setting in, tears were flowing, and my body simply ached.

However a simple two hour car ride changed all of that for me.It brought me a little warmth, some time swimming and splashing in the pool, and reconnecting with "mi vida." It was just what I needed to cure the winter blues.

Christian and I took an overnight trip to Philadelphia. We went to the Car Show, swam in what ended up being our own private pool, and enjoyed our wonderful view of the river from our enormous windows. We also went to Adventure Aquarium which was beautiful.

This simple overnight tripped made me fall more in love with Christian and learn more about him in my little made up questions game. It was really a wonderful experience. I feel so relaxed, happy, and peaceful.

Free Lunch

I always wanted to buy a stranger lunch. Yet I never really knew how to go about doing it. Today I was standing on line to get my lunch at the mall after a search for a black polo shirt for work, which I was unsuccesful in finding. A young gentleman, about 17 was standing there waiting for awhile because he was paying with his credit card, but the line was down. So instead of having him wait any longer I paid for his lunch.

So simple, I know. But it felt so good to let him know that there is still kindness in the world. Hopefully that small act of kindness flows over.

Love Thursday's: Mexico

When I first heard of love thursdays I immeditly thought of my trip to Mexico. While in Mexico I felt so much love all around me. It was simply an amazing experience.

These two little girls were so sweet. They brought us over cookies and juice while we were working with there brother Oscar in the Nopal's field. Oscar rent's the land from his abuela (grandmother) and works their every single day. Like I go to a Corporate Restaurant to work every day, Oscar goes outside into nature and works with the land.

It was an amazing day for me. Filled with a lot of hard work, but also a lot of fun, love, and inspiration. The respect these individuals have for each other and the respect they have for nature was something that really shined through in them and touched my soul.

Happy LOVE Thursdays. I hope you see the love that is all around you today!

Inspiration

There are two fabulous new spaces out here which are filled with inspiration

Sparkletopia is a wonderful new site for all things creative. There is so much inspiration and creativity flowing through that page, that it is hard to not be inspired. The wonderful Christine Mason Miller is the creator of this jewel.

Shutter Sisters is an inspiring collabrative blog, filled with all sorts of amazing photos. Many wonderful photographers are a part of this. You can meet all the sisters or even join them in clicking away. It has already inspired me to pick up my camera and start shooting again.

Not hiding

I was hiding under the covers

Afraid to get out
Afraid to see what was really there
Afraid to see all the things I have been avoiding

Terrified
I am terrified
To see
To feel
To face my mistakes

I struggled
I fought
I came up with a million reasons
why it was better just to stay in bed

Yet one reason gave me the little nudge I needed
to get out
to breathe
to face what was right in front of me

Life

My life was at stake
I was trembling
but I put my first foot on the floor,
I felt the coldness and almost pulled it right back up

I gathered all my strength and placed my second foot on the floor
I stood
I opened my eyes
I looked around

To my surprise what I saw
was beautiful
not so scary
and I sighed a huge sigh of relief

I choose to live,
to experience,
to not hide
And that felt really good!

Finally seeing the Rainbow

The past week has been long
Filled with sleep
A desire to stay in bed,
and a struggle to get out.

The weekend was long
Filled with stress
A desire to have it end,
and a feeling that it was never going to be over.

However Monday is here!
Monday, my favorite day.
Mondays and Tuesdays...
my little weekend,
My fresh start.

This Monday,
this one was a good one.
Getting out of bed,
not sleeping the day away.
Singing my head off.
A girl movie.
Learning new words.
And laughs with mi vida!

The clouds seem to be parting
The Rainbow is smiling it's brilliant colors at me.
My heart is starting to feel lighter,
and I am enjoying the days once more.

Searching...

I am twenty seven years old.
I graduated college last May with a degree in Literature.
It was a huge accomplishment for me, an accomplishment that took many years.

Hear I am, still working in the restaurant buisness.
Still serving drinks, and food, and fired up favorites.
Still in the same job I had since Freshman year of college.

I am scared, nervous, and intimidated to apply for a "career."
I feel like I lack the skills, am to immature, am not qualified enough.
And I am not even sure why I feel this way.

I have been working since I was sixteen.
Every job I had I moved up in.
I am a hard worker.

Why do I feel so down about this?

I have applied for a bunch of jobs...
Yet got nothing back,
not even an interview.

This is what is bringing me down.

What is wrong with me?
Why don't employers want to even sit down with me?
What is wrong with my resume?

This is really hard for me to write.
I feel like I will never get past this point.
I feel stuck, not really sure where to turn.

The problem is...I don't even know what kind of job I would be good at.
I don't what I want.
I love helping people.
I love teaching, and training new people.
I love being creative.

But what kind of a job will encompass those things?

As a kid I always wanted to be a teacher.
And I have a Lit degree, but no teacher certification to speak of.
I don't have the money to go back to school to get that certification.
Can't I find some kind of a job with my degree?
Something... I put in so much time, effort, and money to accomplish this degree.

Looking for a job is hard, and stressful, and is really bringing me down.

2008 Life Proposal

I am working on my life proposal for 2008. This is what I have so far, the rough draft.

My 2008 Life Proposal

I would like to propose a life filled with creative endeavors. A life where I am free to dream, free to create, and free to be "me". In doing this I am connecting with individuals and inspiring them to take their own creative adventure.

I plan on doing this by smiling at strangers more often and provoking them into conversation. Asking "feeling" questions, rather hen just discussing the weather and taking the time to really listen to the answer. Be aware of my enviornment, and truly feel my surroundings.

I will work hard to create with what is around m and incorporate who is around me. And most importantly I will not feel silly or stupid for my efforts no matter who puts me down.


Like any Proposal I am going to have to discuss it with the "bosses" of my life...my heart and mind. I hope they come together on this and fully support my proposal, encourage me along the way, and give me positive feedback.

What would you life proposal look like for 2008?

GOD Box....

I received this box from work which I had my eye on ever since it made it's way into the office. I don't know why, but for some reason I just loved this box. I was never sure what I would do with it, but I was lucky to be able to take it home with me about a week ago. It sat on my chair...I loved it...but had no idea what to do with it.

Then came along the idea for the God Box. Oh this was just what I needed right now. This was exactly what I needed, and a perfect thing to do with my box. So I worked on it today, and even wrote my first letter to God.



I stitched the outside of the paper with a needle and thread, which was very soothing to do. And I asked the letter to travel with tenderness.

I am not a religious person, so using the word "God" merely means "universe" "divine being"...something along those lines. This idea is originally from SARK. It is mentioned in her book Transformation Soup.



After writing my letter I feel some what lighter and happier. I feel as almost a small weight has been lifted off of my shoulders and I can breathe because it is out of my hands now. Now it is time for me to just sit back, relax, and enjoy....and I can do that without a problem.