Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Searching...

I am twenty seven years old.
I graduated college last May with a degree in Literature.
It was a huge accomplishment for me, an accomplishment that took many years.

Hear I am, still working in the restaurant buisness.
Still serving drinks, and food, and fired up favorites.
Still in the same job I had since Freshman year of college.

I am scared, nervous, and intimidated to apply for a "career."
I feel like I lack the skills, am to immature, am not qualified enough.
And I am not even sure why I feel this way.

I have been working since I was sixteen.
Every job I had I moved up in.
I am a hard worker.

Why do I feel so down about this?

I have applied for a bunch of jobs...
Yet got nothing back,
not even an interview.

This is what is bringing me down.

What is wrong with me?
Why don't employers want to even sit down with me?
What is wrong with my resume?

This is really hard for me to write.
I feel like I will never get past this point.
I feel stuck, not really sure where to turn.

The problem is...I don't even know what kind of job I would be good at.
I don't what I want.
I love helping people.
I love teaching, and training new people.
I love being creative.

But what kind of a job will encompass those things?

As a kid I always wanted to be a teacher.
And I have a Lit degree, but no teacher certification to speak of.
I don't have the money to go back to school to get that certification.
Can't I find some kind of a job with my degree?
Something... I put in so much time, effort, and money to accomplish this degree.

Looking for a job is hard, and stressful, and is really bringing me down.

4 comments:

Marilyn said...

Oh, sweetie, this is a hard place to be in...trust me, I've been there off and on for DECADES. (Really!) :) I have plenty to say about this, but I'm gonna email you instead...

Marilyn said...

One more thing (beyond my email)...don't forget to re-read the first paragraph of your 2008 Life Proposal. ;) xoxo

daisies said...

i was your age when i graduated with my english lit degree as well, not knowing what to do, i went back and did an education after degree so that i could teach but in the end found myself with a career in project management, writing and photography ... life is a weird. follow your heart and take chances ~ i think it will lead you to interesting places ... best of luck

Jena Strong said...

Trust that you are IN the process - not only of finding the "thing" but of it finding you. The hardest thing is feeling like you're in a passive relationship to the whole process, at the mercy of hearing back (or not) from all of those employers. Taking a different stance - one where you are empowered, making choices, creating things - changes everything! I'm a career counselor and life coach - found your blog via Superhero. If you're ever interested in a conversation about coaching, please feel free to contact me at jena(at)strongcoaching(dot)com.

All the best!

xo Jena