The seed has been planted

Me ~ so happy ~ with the amazing warm hearted founder of squam, Elizabeth

The magic of squam has been infused into a whole new group of budding artist. They gathered around that fabulous lake and embraced one another as the previous group had done. Their stories and pictures of their time spent at squam brings back all the amazing feelings I felt when I was there last September. Just reading their words and thoughts has watered that little seed that was planted into my heart when I was exploring those fabulous woods for myself.

It was at squam when I truly felt like people saw "me" for the very first time. There were no judgements only acceptance. The loved swirled around and swept me off my feet. I grew my wings and since then have been learning how to fly. I dip my hands into paint more often and snap more photos.

Unfortunately this year I will not get the chance to be engulfed in the magic. But if you even have an inkling of wanting to feel the warmth and love that I did I highly recommend you take the leap and attend squam in September. There are no words that can describe how you feel and what it will do for your heart and soul. Spread those wings and fly!

Holding on to the Magic

Squam Workshops, New Hampshire

Coming home from squam I was on this amazing high.  Floating above the clouds from all the love and inspiration that enveloped me.  I have never experienced such magic before.  It was breathtaking.  

However now I sit here and cry.  Unable to figure out how to incorporate all those amazing feelings into my every day living.  I still have to pay my bills, still have to go to work, still have to do the dishes and think of something to cook for dinner.  My mind seems unable to grasp it all.  I am upset with myself because I have not carved out any time to create, any time to read, any time to just be with myself and soak in my emotions from squam.  I am in desperate need of a warm hug from the amazing Thea and time to just sit and talk with the fabulous Jen Gray  I miss cozying up to the fire at night, telling stories, listening to brave souls pour out their hearts, and feeling seen for the first time in my life.  Coming back to NJ I feel slightly lost because I am unable to get a grip on it all.  I am juggling many things in my life and what I really need to do is put it all down.  Examine what is really important and pick only those things back up.  

My mind needs time to sort through it all.  To embrace the moment.  To cherish the memories.  And to figure out how to hold onto it and spread it around me.  

I am searching for answers.  

SQUAM

I am doing it....I am actually really doing it.
I can not even believe it myself.
But I am attending SQUAM
This is a dream come true for me.

I am extremely nervous about it
I am not an artist
I just love to do art.
Who am I to be surround by such inspiration?

But I am doing it
I am putting myself out there, and it is so exciting.
This will be a trip I will remember for the rest of my life.

What feels even better is that I am doing this for myself.
Purely for myself.
Rarely do I do things for myself.
I know this experience will fill my heart, inspire my soul, and leave me smiling from ear to ear.

Two more weeks!! Hooray!!