I feel the need to transform. I feel like I am in a time of change, a moment of growth, but I feel frustrated, hurt, and angry because I am not sure what I am looking for. I am not sure what I am missing. I am not sure what I need to feel strong, brave, and secure. I feel like my feet are glued to the ground but I need to fly, soar, find out who I really am.
It is a miserable feeling. This feeling of not really knowing who I am. I feel like I don't know who I am, or how to even figure that out. I feel like my dreams have become hazy. I dislike parts of myself. I am insecure. Oh, it is a miserable feeling.
I feel like inside of me is this stick. Going right down the center of my body. It is propping me up in a way. Forcing me to stand tall, to act brave, to pretend I know who I am. I feel like I need this stick to crack right in half so that I can explore, be free, set my wings out to fly, to find myself. Yet I have no idea how to crack this stick.