Sunday, November 28, 2010

opening


I was standing there
But I felt like I was somewhere else
Looking in on this interaction that was taking place

I was speaking
Yet I was not sure where the words were coming from
I felt like myself yet also totally outside of myself

Words were coming out of my mouth
Yet I was not even sure what I was saying
They came quickly and without thought

My heart was beating a little bit faster
Redness flooded my cheeks
I surprised myself with my inner reaction

I was not sure exactly what I was saying
Or even where it was coming from
All I knew is that I wanted to keep the conversation going

I wanted to hear more
Listen to the stories
Look into those eyes

What does one say to someone they never met before
But would like the privilege of getting to know?
What are the right words to bring someone in?

What was coming out of my mouth sounded foreign
I was stumbling over words and thoughts
Struggling a bit to keep myself going

Then I walked away
Without looking back
Never asking the question I really wanted to ask

I was awakened with nervous energy
Pulled towards this unknown
Filled up with hope again

A brief interaction
Infusing my heart
With the possibility of what lies ahead







4 comments:

beth said...

i think we've all been in that spot that you just described perfectly....

What We Create said...

I have definitely been there. You paint a beautiful picture with your words. I recently found you on Tracy Clark's "I am enough". I wrote the October 16th essay. I enjoy your writing and included your blog in my "inspiration" section. I just launched my blog a few weeks ago. So, stop by and visit. www.whatwecreate.net Looking forward to seeing you soon.

Ellen aka Ella said...

I can so relate; We all have or will have moments like this~ It is
hard to open your soul sometimes~
YOU seem to have no problem on your blog! xXx

elizabeth said...

I can definitely relate. I would love to know the right words to bring someone in. But maybe there are no right words, maybe it's just the feeling behind the words.