SQUAM

I am doing it....I am actually really doing it.
I can not even believe it myself.
But I am attending SQUAM
This is a dream come true for me.

I am extremely nervous about it
I am not an artist
I just love to do art.
Who am I to be surround by such inspiration?

But I am doing it
I am putting myself out there, and it is so exciting.
This will be a trip I will remember for the rest of my life.

What feels even better is that I am doing this for myself.
Purely for myself.
Rarely do I do things for myself.
I know this experience will fill my heart, inspire my soul, and leave me smiling from ear to ear.

Two more weeks!! Hooray!!

Not leaving....

I can't leave.  I simply must stay.

I enjoy it here.

The conversation, the laughter, the common bond we have formed for being together for so long.  

What amazes me is how this place has brought us all together. 

All so different, yet sharing something special, sharing something unique just by being here.

When you leave things change.  

You lose touch, you do not have the same connection.  It is a shame

So I simply must stay.  I can't leave

I really enjoy it here.

I know what to expect when I  walk in.

A friendly greeting, a smile, "hi hunnnie"

I do not have that anywhere else.  

It has grown here and has become a part of me.

Sure one day I will move on, 

but for now I am going to enjoy the part of me that has been nurtured here and I will stay  

Looking Out

Looking out, 

and what do I see?

Is that the same girl staring up at me?

She is stronger now

Braver

A look of determination in her eyes.  

How did she grow in such a short amount of time?

I turned around for a second and here she stands above me.

Ready to help me up with a gentle smile and calming look in her eyes.

She seems happy living alone, enjoying each day, working hard.

She seems more together, more relaxed, calm.

Is that the same girl staring up at me?

I look for a long time into those deep brown eyes and I realize

the girl I see is me.  

Embracing life, savoring the sights and sounds, and feeling what is around.

The road was long, the path was bumpy, and still I am on my journey.

Traveling along with a little more pep in my step, and a song in my heart.

Everything as it should be.

Traveling along with this beautiful girl inside of me.