Almost here!!

The summer is almost here and I cannot wait to enjoy being outside with such a wonderful person!!

Metamorphose

Just wanted to share some quotes that are resonating in my heart today.


"How does one become a butterfly? She asked pensively. You must want to fly so much that you are willing to give up being a caterpillar."
-Trina Paulus


"If you ever get a second chance in life for something, you've got to go all the way."
-Lance Armstrong


"You can have anything in life you desire if you are willing to sacrifice everything else for it."
-Unknown


"Nothing great is ever achieved without much enduring"
-Unknown

The Storm

The storm has passed,
yet I can still feel its presence.
I can see the destruction everywhere.
I feel it with every movement
and can smell it with each breath.

How does one recover from such a disastrous storm?
How does one put back the pieces and continue on with life?

The sun is shining again,
yet it does not look as brilliant as it once had.
The colors in the sky are beautiful,
however they seem dim and faded in my heart
I want to feel the beauty.

A piece of me feels changed forever.
broken
hurt
saddened
by all this destruction.

Will things get better?
Will things continue on like I planned them in my heart?

I want to feel the warmth of the sun on my skin.
I want to bask in the beauty of what is above me.

For now though, this seems impossible.
Will that change?
Will new life grow?
Only time can tell,
as the destruction from the storm forms new opportunity's to grow.

Nothing else to say but...

Feeling so miserable (about everything)!

spring is in the air

I can feel spring in the air. It makes me so happy. I cannot wait for the warm weather. To be able to spend my days with the sun on my face, playing tennis, bicycle riding, walking through the mountains, going to the beach, and swimming in the pool in my apartment complex. !hooray!

I wanted to share this picture with you because it looks like a mountain in the background, however it is really just the clouds. It was taken in Key West Florida. What an amazing place. I hope to go back their soon one day. The most beautiful sunsets and the most wonderful weather. For all of you whom have been their, take the trip. I am sure you will enjoy it.

What is coming?

"I do not know what is coming any more than Yeats knew, but when you come to the end of one time and the begining of a new one it is a period of tremendous pain and turmoil."
-The Power of Myth

In need of a peaceful place

Reaching new heights of happiness
then crashing back down, hard
The pain is just to much to bare
Inside my heart is crushed
The pain feels so real

Did you ever feel this Empty


I never knew I could feel so much hurt. So torn up inside. I never knew my heart could hurt so much. Yet here it is. I am standing in the pain. Taking in all the agony. I know a day will come when I will be filled with sunshine, but for now I am just looking for a little Serendipity.

"A fortunate accident, lucky discoveries."
--Serendipity

twenty years from now

This year I have been inspired by SwirlyGirl and her project 52 Figments I have really enjoyed thinking about these questions and creating something to go along with my answer.

One of the questions was:

Imagining having a conversation with yourself twenty years from now. What question do you want to ask?

What immediately hit my mind was "will I be married?" However after a lot of thinking and pondering I really think that I would want to know "If happiness follows me wherever I roam?" I plan to travel after I graduate college. Possibly move to Mexico. I want to experience Christians "home." See where he came from and all the wonderful places he tells me about. I might move to California, San Francisco has always held an interest in me.

The reason I would ask that question is because I am curious if out of my element, away from family, and away from my friends if I could adjust. Just be. And be happy. In my heart I believe the answer is yes, but of course we always must questions things. The great and worst part about being human.

Todos que necesito

Oh my Tlalolini.

This past week has been a tough one for me. A lot of things going on have left me down and out. However this wonderful man has really made it so much easier. He has been their for me in ways he may not even realize and has helped out so much with our apartment. Christian Tlalolini tu es numero uno! Te quiero mucho!

The days are getting much better and I am begining to be filled with so much more happiness. I think sometimes we just need to experience our gloom. It is part of life. For me I did that this past week. However after a wonderful cake baked in an amazing new kind of pan, a game of Mario Baseball, and some good laughs I am feeling like myself again.

Theme for 2006

Passion, originally uploaded by sunflowers131.

I choose my theme in the begining of the month. I just never got a chance to create a picuture representing my theme. It is Febuary, the month filled with love. So I think it is appropriate I created this now.

My dream for 2006 is to live it full with passion. To feel the passion in everything I do, no matter how small a task it is. The inner artist is inside and it wants to be heard. This is the year to let it all it all. Experience it all.

I look forward to this year. A new year, a new living space, and new classes at school. It is going to be a fabulous year!!