This Place

I feel like I haven't been here in so long

This place, it feels different

It doesn't feel like mine

If these walls could talk they would ask me where I have been.

I have been gone from here, but...

I have been out making connections

Embracing the love from others

Creating new memories with family

I have been soaring high

Feeling brave

Sharing the love that resides in my heart

Opening up, spreading my wings

I have put myself out there

I have gained so much

Connected

Observed

Healed

but, I long to create

I long to be right here in my magical cottage

Diving into what resides in my heart

Splattering paint all over my hands

Getting the words that are swirling around in my head onto paper.

I long to fully explore my inner muse

Balance

I need to find a balance

between love, connections, and my inner heart

I need to find a balance 

between what is out there and what is hidden in here

A balance between you doing what you love and me besides you, covered in paint exploring

I need.....