My heart on paper

Ramapo Reservation

I stand here staring at my shadow

Trying to be sure of myself

Trying to fall freely into what I see ahead of me

I struggle sometimes

I have never been here before

I have never been surrounded by so much love

At times I wonder if I am handling it with the care it deserves

I am afraid it will crumble 

I am afraid I will fall

Never have I felt like I was in the center of someones universe, and they in mine

Never have I felt so strong

Never have I felt so much

The kindness and love that swirls around me is intoxicating

It breathes strength into my weakened bones

And takes away the gloom during these dark days

The conversation is enthralling

The eyes are calming

I feel brave

I feel like myself

I worry that I don't show how I feel well enough

I worry that I lack any sense of expressing my true emotions

I worry that I won't feel like I am enough or can give enough

The struggle seems endless sometimes

A constant battle between my heart and my head

I am healing

I am growing

I am observing 

I feel strong

I can see my dreams more clearly

I smile more

I am surrounded by amazing people

I am standing tall