Tuesday, July 08, 2008

Here, Now What?



Here I am,
Now what?
What am I doing here?
How did I even get here?
Do I belong here?

Sometimes I am not so sure
I shy away from myself, 
get nervous to stand tall
I put myself down.

That needs to stop, 
right here
right now

What?
What do you have to say about that?
I tried to give you my heart.
I tried to show you who I was

You disappeared
You backed down
You are no longer around.

Yes I would love to have you here,
but it doesn't seem like you care much for that.

So I choose myself.
I choose to save the only thing I know how to save
I choose me.
You might have not, but I did.  

Don't feel bad for me
Don't look down on me with those disapproving eyes
I need to take care of myself
I need to lift my head up,
look into the sky and reach for the stars

It's a shame it never worked
It's a shame you ran 
But here I am,
firm in the soil, planting my feet in the ground

I traveled an immense distance for you
I placed my heart in the palm of my hands ready to give it to you
Maybe I made it to easy, maybe I was to fragile for you.

Yes I am a "flower loving artist" as you say
Who does need someone pretty "unique to keep me grounded"
But I'm not worried about that now
I have my head on my shoulders, 
I am feeding my heart and nourishing my soul.

I am Here!

2 comments:

♪♪HARINI♪♪ said...

hey really nice...n very sweet too.. n the opic was real nice too

Lisa said...

Wow! I could have written most of these words myself this week. As we venture into unknown territory and become vulnerable - it seems that fear, worry, and uncertainty try to tag along for the ride.

Good for you for taking care of yourself! That's the one big thing I'm realizing over and over again as I gain age and wisdom...the *only* thing and the *most important* thing I have to make right is myself. All else will fall into place over time. And if it doesn't, then it doesn't belong in my life any more.

Peace to you,

Lisa