Sunday, August 19, 2007


Today I had a conversation about friendship and honesty. We had two conflicting opinions. Although I do not agree with everything he thinks and feels, I can see where he is coming from. And I can't help but feel a little sad.

He believes that there is no such thing as 'the truth.' That things are here one day and then gone the next. When they are here we believe them to be true, but that dream gets shattered. For the moment it feels real, but the moment never last's forever. He even gave me an example of a past relationship. Saying how during that time I believed everything the person told me to be true, however now I do not accept any of those ideas as truth. Does that make those memories all a lie? Is that all an illusion, like he says?

He believes you come into this world alone and leave this world alone so the only person you need to really look after is yourself. I do believe we come in alone, and leave alone but it is the people who are with us along the way that make our experiences that much better. If we were alone for this entire journey just think of what a depressing thing this life would be.

He believes that there is no such thing as friendship. People are around for only a short amount of time, and the only people who really care about you is your family. My family has been there for me through so much, but so have some of my friends. Sure some have come and gone, but there are a precious few who have seen all sides of me and are still here for me.

He believes that everything in this world is an illusion. I asked him if he thought it was possible for him to find the perfect match. He said he was too young to believe that.

He seems to always be picking out the bad in others.

He seems to never really let anyone in. Jumping around leaving pieces of himself scattered about.

He seems to try and hide that he does not care what other think, but deep down inside he is aiming to fit in.

The conversation left me feeling a little bit sad inside. He claims to be extremely happy, but I am not sure that is true. I think it is really sad for someone to not believe in friendship or truth. I like to think people are good and that if you treat them well they will treat you well in return. We all have our moments when we are not honest and we build up illusions around us, however I think inherently we are honest individuals.

I know I cannot change how he thinks and feels, but I just hope he meets someone who is able to open his heart up to love and be able to show him what truth and friendship is really all about. It is not dark and dreary like he made it sound; rather it is comforting and absolutely wonderful.

1 comment:

Kelly said...

That is so sad, what a lonely, lost boy he is. I don't know if he has been hurt before and is afraid to open himself up, or if he is afraid to even take the first step because he might get hurt, but either's a lonely way to live.

I believe having friends enriches us, makes life worth living, and they can often support you, understand you, and "get" you even better than your family can.

I hope someday he opens his heart to good friends and love.

I'm sorry it made you sad for him, you have a kind heart.