Saturday, October 06, 2012

alone


I know how it feels to be alone
To close the door and know the only way it will open is if you do so

I know how it feels to be alone, you are here, all by yourself
No one else will join you, it is just you

It can feel so amazing in one minute, and then terribly lonely in the next
I know how it feels to be alone

I can't imagine spending an incredible amount of years with someone
And then it is just you, alone

From that moment on, everything must be different
You used to have this way of being
Inside jokes
A way of working together

And now here you are alone

No longer in your space that you called home for so many years
Surrounded by new people, a new place
Nothing familiar
Everything changing

I could not imagine that type of alone
How that must feel
How lonely it could be

All I know is what it feels like to be alone
After being with someone for only a short time

How does one adjust to being alone after years of being together?
How does one continue on, happy, alert, appreciative of just being here?

How?  How?



4 comments:

marilyn said...

keep breathing, just keep breathing. and lean in. i love you, your heart!

curious girl (lisa) said...

breathe, create, rest, purge, nurture, run fast in the rain, write, rage, indulge, keep moving forward to the time when the pain is numbed a bit and you can respect the story for what it gave you and who it made you.

and call your friends. often and any time. ;)

Gail Stoughton said...

Even when you feel alone, you are not really alone. Reach inside to that deep quiet space inside that feels empty and call out. You will hear something. You will hear us. We are always in there and we love you.

beth said...

i often think about that....the fact that my hubby and i have been together since i was 17....high school sweethearts....and now married, almost 28 years.

i can't imagine my life without him, as we are like two trees who have grown side by side, but with all of my roots completely wrapped around all of his roots.....as if we are one.

i hope your alone time is just that....instead of loneliness.....thinking of you....xo