Confusion

I close my eyes

It is dark

Even when I open them

It is dark

I am not sure where I am going

The path I am on is long

At times I feel like I should stray,

Other times I feel glued to where this path is leading me

I am not sure where I am going

Darkness surrounds me

Envelopes me into this sacred feeling of 

being alone, terrified, and completely at peace

All of these feelings exist inside me

Swirly around

Meshing together

Blending into one thick paste

Which has taken over my heart.

I am not sure where to turn,

Not sure how to break through this hard shell

So for now I will let this hardness settle, but only for a short while

Soon I will need to break out my hammer and chisel away.

Does something soft and tender still exist under there?