Surprise!

Last Saturday we celebrated my Aunt Alice's 40th birthday. And oh what a celebration is was. It was so exciting that she truly was surprised. During the night each of her eleven brothers and sisters got up and said a little something about her. It brought tears to my eyes. She is the youngest child of eleven and will do anything for everyone. She truly deserved to be celebrated that night.



Happy Birthday Aunt Alice!

Grateful

I am grateful for...
The sun shining down on my face
The sound of music in my ears
Dancing
My wonderful family, who loves me regardless of my shortcomings
The friendships I have formed
The little things that make me smile
and for the mystery of what life holds in store for me

Hurting

Stumbling
Fumbling
Falling
Falling
and Falling again.

On the ground unable to get up
Feeling glued to the pavement.

Cold, shaking,
wet from my own tears.

Motionless
Hurting

Feeling powerless
Feeling helpless

Not sure what do
Feeling I cannot do anything at all

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Our Sonnet


Sweet Lady, song of my heart,
Hold my hand, as this journey we start.
Lift me up in spirit of joy and gladness;
And shield my soul from heartbreak and sadness.
Steadfast, honest and true;
Your partner is here and will forever love you.

It is my prayer that I will always be;
The one who brings you joy and sets your spirit free.
With my love I’ll cover you and warm your soul with mine;
Give you pleasures – like none you will find.
Your Sweet Lady, song of your heart;
Will love you forever, together or apart.

So hear me Sweet Lady, and know in your soul;
That there is no better future than with you to grow old.
Endless caresses, touches and kisses;
Our passion a banner for our love’s true existence.
My hand I extend and my honor I offer;
For being with you my love, there is no greater pleasure.

Your hand I accept, and all your love as well;
My heart sings so loudly, all can tell
I am loved and in love with the man made for me
Hold my hand; let us walk through this life
Being what we were meant to be
Together

Borrowed words

I came across this quote ....I feel as though it is speaking right to my heart.

"One must never despair upon losing something, whether it is an individual or an experience of joy or happiness; everything returns even more magnificently. What has to decline, declines; what belongs to us, stays with us, for everything works according to laws that are greater than our capacity for understanding and that only seem to contradict us. You have to live within yourself and think of all of life, all of its millions of possibilities, openings, and futures in relation to which there exists nothing that is past or has been lost." -Rainier Maria Rilke

Theme Song

We should all have a theme song. A song that gives us inspiration when we are down, cheers us up, and possibly gets a dancing a little bit. I have stumbled upon my theme song. Well not really stumbled. I have know this song, and love it. In fact I love all of Jack Johnson's music. And how can you not enjoy a song where curious george is in the video.

"Upside Down" is such a fabulous song. The words speak right to my heart and put's a little pep into my step after I hear it.

What is your theme song?

Mirror

I feel I have grown stronger, wiser, happier, more sure of myself.
However I know someone who is my mirror of the past.
Looking to please others, not knowing how to say no, weak, unhappy.

She is sweet and kind, caring to others
But there are times when I cannot stand her.
It makes me mad to think that I was that way.

I think it is sad that she does not see her worth,
like I was unable to see mine.
And she is worth so much more!

When I see her I think:
Was I really that pathetic?
Did I really have no self worth for myself?
Why didn't I respect who I was?
Am I still that way now? Is that why I am upset?

I want to be sure I respect myself.
Am caring to myself.
And make choices based on these two things.

I want to enjoy life,
Not have life trample me

I want to be able to see the sunshine,
and enjoy it.

I want to laugh,
and laugh with others.

I am not trying to change my mirror,
Because she has to go through her own struggle.
I am trying to change myself.
I want to make sure I am brave, strong, happy, respecting myself, and others

It worries me though because we often pick out qualities in others which we truly dislike about ourself.
I don't want to be that scared little girl anymore.
I don't feel like her anymore.

I feel brave.
I feel strong.
I feel like I respect myself.
Is my mirror cloudy, or is she still a mirror of me today?






"Cause the weak will
Seek the weaker until they've broken them,
Could you get it back again?
Would it be the same?
Fulfillment to their lack of strength
At your expense,
Left you with no defense,
They tore it down.

And I have felt the same, as you I've felt the same,
As you I've felt the same

Cause the fearful always preyed upon your confidence,
Did they see the consequence?
They pushed you around?
The arrogant build kingdoms made of the different ones,
Breaking them 'til they've become,
Just another crown,

And I have felt the same, as you I've felt the same,
As you I've felt the same, as you I've felt the same."

*Lifehouse**Simon*