The Middle

"Hey, don't write yourself off yet.

It's only in your head you feel left out

or looked down on.

Just try your best, try everything you can.

And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away.

It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of this ride

Everything will be just fine, everything will be allright.

Hey, you know they're all the same.

You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in.

Live right now."

~The Middle, Jimmy Eat World

Confusion

I close my eyes

It is dark

Even when I open them

It is dark

I am not sure where I am going

The path I am on is long

At times I feel like I should stray,

Other times I feel glued to where this path is leading me

I am not sure where I am going

Darkness surrounds me

Envelopes me into this sacred feeling of 

being alone, terrified, and completely at peace

All of these feelings exist inside me

Swirly around

Meshing together

Blending into one thick paste

Which has taken over my heart.

I am not sure where to turn,

Not sure how to break through this hard shell

So for now I will let this hardness settle, but only for a short while

Soon I will need to break out my hammer and chisel away.

Does something soft and tender still exist under there?

and the trouble...

"And the trouble I find is that the trouble finds me

It's a part of my mind, it begins with a dream

And a feeling I get when I look and I see

That this world is a puzzle, I'll find all of the pieces

And put it all together, and then I'll rearrange it

I'll follow it forever

Always be as strange as it seems

Nobody ever told me not to try"

~Jack Johnson~ Talk of the Town

Side by Side

We used to stand side by side

Walk hand and hand

Look into each others eyes

What do we do now?

How do we act now?

How did we even get here?

I don't have any answers, 

I am not even sure what is going on

But here we are...

not side by side.

Something Beautiful

Something beautiful is waiting for you right around the corner.

All you have to do is:

Turn the corner, smile, breathe, and accept whatever wonderful things are floating your way!

Thank You..Whoever You Are!

I always write for me.

To clear my head, make room for thinking, and to find an inner peace within myself. 

I don't have much of a following, and I really never keep track.

Although I must admit it is really nice to get comments from others.  

Every once in awhile a comment sticks with you, makes your day, makes you smile from ear to ear, and makes you happy that you decided to put yourself out there like this...on a medium that is so unpredictable.  

Anonymous ~ you have done this for me.  

Thank you making me feel not so alone in the world.

Thank you for commenting...and thank you for reading my words.  

I appreciate it more than you know.

...

This is how I feel today.  

Alone, and hanging from a single thread.  

Not sure if I will fall at any moment.

And if I do fall will I crash down or land gently in the soft grass.  

So here I am hanging in limbo.

Not sure what will happen.

"if not you, who?  If not now, when?"  

(thanks Jen)

IT!

Here we are.  

Living it, going through it, ignoring it.  

We are hiding from it, coming up with excuses,

and not really wanted to face it.

However we must break it. 

We must see it for what it really is.  

Embrace it!

It is hard to do.  

Hard to face it.  

But we can do it.  

Set it free. 

Let it fly.

You will fly to.  

"Kind speech has the power to turn the destiny of a nation"

~Momma Zen

Organizing

I am good at organizing.  

Constantly moving things around to find there perfect position on the shelf.

Here, no...here maybe.

Up, down, back and forth.

Constantly moving, constantly changing.

I never give anything a chance to simply just be.

To be what it is, to be where it is.

I don't stop to appreciate what is around me.

I don't stop to appreciate the moment.

I have to move it around, switch it up, give it a new place, a new home.

What would happen if I just accepted it as it is.

Whatever it was?

To simply just let them be, in whatever form they are in.

I think I am going to give it a try.