Trust

I learned in class today that connecting with another human being is what an individual craves.
The connection is important.
Humans can measure so many things, but it is the immeasurable which keeps our minds going.
It keeps us wanting more and wondering what is next.

An important key to all of this is trust
Trust in who we are
Trust in who we know
Trust in what we want from life
Trust in the world that surrounds us.

What happens though when trust is not there?
What happens when the one you trust does not trust you?
Where does this lead you?
Where are you going?

Gaining someone's trust is not an easy task
yet it is an important one.

Do you trust me?
Will you trust me?
How will our relationship be without trust?
Where can we go from here?

Knowing the past

I am back in school and the first two professors I have had so far asked the same question. They asked us to name our great grandparents. I found it very interesting that both professors asked this and that only a few number of people in the class could answer. I was one of the many who could not. They are our flesh and blood, the reason we are here, and yet they are forgotten. I have some memories of one of my great grandmothers, yet I cannot recall her name. How terribly sad.

Why is it that we do not research our family history more? Why do we not explore further why we are here and who the people are that lead to our creation. Why do we just keep pressing on never looking that far back?

Life is brimming with so many things. So many incomprehensible things. So much information. There is just so much out there. I am not sure as humans we are able to take it all in and make sense of everything. We must pick and choose what we feel is important. Possibly our fear of dying and non existence doesn't want to take us to the past. We want to keep pressing on so that we are taken further ahead instead of further behind.

However maybe the key to who we are lies within those people. Maybe they hold a piece of the puzzle. They are part of the line of how I got here, isn't that important enough. Possible I need to explore these people further, take the time to get to know them, and maybe then I will learn a lot more about me. Not only through them but through the people who will share the stories of them. It may be time to explore my family tree.



They key to the future is hidden in the past.

Fabulous words

I am in search of inspiring, fabulous, wonderful words. I am not looking for quotes but rather single words that spark a chord in your heart. Some on my list so far are:

Dream
Discover
Brilliant
Fabulous
Serendipity
Wonder
Love
Explore
Desire


My brain is stumped. For some reason I cannot come up with the words which I really desire on my list. I need help finding them. What are some of your favorite words? Maybe they are the words I have been looking for. I can feel the words in my heart but am not sure what they are. Please help!!!


I really need to get my traveling journal in motion. My aunt asked me about it today, which makes me excited but also upset that I have not executed the idea yet. The idea is there I just need to execute it as brilliantly as I see it in my head. I want it to come out fabulous, which I know in the end it will. I really need to put together the journal and come up with what I want to contribute. I was thinking of a poem, possible some painting, or a collage. Hopefully inspiration will pour down into my head as heavy as the rain has fallen today.

Dreams

"Your dreams are not yours by accident.
You have them for a reason, many reasons,
not the least of which is to make them come true.
Your dreams, ARE WHAT'S MEANT TO BE!"
-Unknown-

Your dreams are yours for a reason.
Never stop dreaming.
Keep your dreams close to your heart,
and know they are meant to be.

Without our dreams what would we be?
Hollow souls wondering what can fill us?
Feeling empty inside because we have no hopes or desires.
Our dreams make us real, the make us feel, they makes who we are.

So point your head to they sky and keep nourishing your dreams.
Dream baby, dream!!

Spinning

Spinning
Spinning
Spinning

Riding the roller coaster
UP
DOWN
AROUND

Constantly coming around the corners
making the sharp turns
and dropping down the hills

Wanting the ride to stop
Screaming as every hill is approaching
Trapped inside the strap

Feeling safe
and like I am going to die
All within the same breathe

Not sure when this torture will stop

Reminiscing

Spent the weekend down the shore and had such a wonderful time.
It is so nice to be around family and reminisce about my childhood.
There were some things my brothers remembered that I did not.
It was such a wonderful time.
Moments like this, remembering the past, really make life beautiful.

Good times!

I just wanted to share this photo today. It was from when I visited Key West Florida, what a fabulous place. We drove around for awhile looking for a spot and then decided just to park in the lot. Our car is right in the middle of the photo. As soon as we walked ot of the lot we noticed the empty spot we drove right past...Classic. Oh how funny. It is moments like this which makes life memorable.

Not harboring unhealthy thoughts

I am in the middle of Elizabeth Gilbert's; "Eat, Pray, Love" and am enjoying every sentence. What I was reading today resonated with me so much that I wanted to share it here. There is no need for background knowledge of the book just this quote:

"I will not harbor unhealthy thoughts anymore"

Unhealthy thoughts do us no good. They only bring us down, make us angry, and never get us where we want to be. So I need to start taking control. Control of my thoughts. Understanding my unhealthy thoughts, and then letting them go. Setting them out to sail in the ocean.

A wooden sail boat set on fire with each unhealthy thought inside. The boat slowly burns, creating an amazing glow on the ocean, and slowly each unhealthy thought sinks to the bottom of the ocean, never to be seen again.

When unhealthy thoughts enter my head I need to repeat:
"I will not harbor unhealthy thoughts anymore"

I tried this today. Repeating this every time an unhealthy thought entered my head. I felt more at peace with myself, and a lot happier. I did not let my anger control me instead I controlled my anger. It felt good to be in control. I think I will stick with this one for awhile, I just hope in my time of need I remember it.

Following through

I always have these fabulous ideas
Things I want to do
Goals I want to accomplish

Yet

I never follow through
I Never follow through

I love my ideas
I love thinking about them
thinking about how I want to accomplish them

Yet

I never follow through
I Never follow through

Why?

Why can I not follow through with my grand plans and schemes?
Why do I love what I want to do but never do it?

Learning Spanish
Taking more photographs
Working on my scrapbooks

I have began all these things,
yet here they sit today...Unfinished

I wish I could hold myself accountable,
Maybe I need some help??

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