I hope this is not a dream

Have you ever woke up and felt like the life you were living was a dream?
You look next to you and their is the love of your life,
the person who makes you smile,
the person you laugh with,
and the person who you really enjoy spending your time with.
The sheets on the bed feel so nice on your skin,
It is not every day they feel this way.
You take a look around your bedroom and the colors look beautiful next to one another
Then you walk out of your bedroom and see the rest of your home.
You have all of this. All of this is yours.
Who ever would have thought that I would be living the life I am now.
I am so happy.
If it is a dream I do not want to wake up for a very long time.

Summer

The warm air sweeps across my face
The sun brilliantly hits my cheeks
My toes curl up underneath the fresh grass

Summer is here

Time to be carefree
Ride bycycles
Play games
Smile
Laugh
and take lots of pictures

Time to enjoy this beautiful thing called life!

Choices

Here I am holding my heart in my hands just waiting for you to belive
If I could bring the stars out of the sky I would give them right to you

I am standing here waiting
Standing here praying
Standing here feeling the pain that
You can not see how I feel for you

You keep walking by
You do not notice the tear in my eye
You do not notice my heart waiting for you

I give you my heart
It is in your hands now
Do you feel it beating with love for you?

Have your eyes been clouded?
Do you see me?
Do you hear me?
Can you feel my touch?

I am giving you all of me
The choice is yours to make
Do you love me?
Can you not live without me?
or
Can you simply walk away?

The choice is in your hands right next to my heart



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Tu eres mi religion

Sunny days bring smiles!

The rain has finally stopped and with that I feel like the rain inside my heart has also calmed down a bit. Sunnier days have brought about more smiles, and have filled me with so much more happiness Oh how I love the warm weather and the bright sun.

Christian and I purchased bicycles and I felt like a kid again riding them around when we got home. It was a lot of fun. I cannot wait to take more adventures on them.

It feels so nice to have a break from school. I have had time to relax, time to enjoy, and time to just veg out being me. The summer is going to be FABULOUS I can feel it in my bones. :)

The Dance

Dancing always makes me feel better. No matter how bad of a mood I am sometimes a certain song like "Staying Alive" will shake me out of that mood and shake me into dancing. Try it some time. In front of the mirror is best.

Relationships...well we never know how they are going to end up. So today these lyrics are ringing true inside of my heart.



Garth Brooks: The Dance

Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared beneath the stars above
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known you'd ever say goodbye
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I the king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Yes my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance



It is better not to know the ending and just to enjoy the time we have. You never know what tomorrow will bring so you better enjoy today!!

Here we are

Here we are sitting together
and
feeling worlds apart.

You are involved with your game
and
I sit here looking at this screen

In the past things were filled with so much joy
and
here were are now, like strangers

I look at you and feel so much
and
you look at me as if you feel nothing

I want back our passion
I want back our closeness
I want back you

Here we are
Close together
Far apart

Noise

Negative thoughts run through our heads on a daily basis. They play over and over like a broken record. Never stopping. Never ceasing. Always reminding us how we are not good enough.

Rarely do the positive words play over and over in our head. For some reason we tend to forget them.


*You are a liar
*You are a bitch
*I do not want to talk to you for a long time
*You are a slut
*You are stupid
*I do not love you
*I hate you
*You are a player of the heart
*You are my problem

Today these thoughts are running through my head. Along with the noise from outside which I have been hearing since seven this morning. I want to scream. I want to cry. I feel like I cannot achieve peace inside my head. Like someone left the television on static and I cannot shut it off. How badly I want to shut it off but the volume just keeps getting louder. How badly I want to feel calm, centered, and loved.

I need to be able to listen to the sound of my own voice. To trust it. Embrace it. Love it.

Life

"We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have that life that is waiting for us."
*Joseph Campbell

So many times in my life I try to plan everything out. I think if I plan it out things will go just as I planned. Yet, each time without fail the plan does not go through as I had thought it would. Something changes last minute, something unexpected occurs, or I just do not want to do what I planned. People feel they always have to stick to their plans or things are not going to be right. However usually when I just roll with the punches and plan nothing, that is when I have the best time.

Life is here for us to enjoy. Planning everything leaves no room for random chance experiences...and usually those are our best days.


I also stumbled upon another quote which I feel is absolutely fabulous:

"The privilege of a lifetime is being who you are"
*Joseph Campbell

Magpies

Today I played the Magpies game thanks to Andrea. This is a game where you meditate for a few minutes on a question then look into the dictionary for the answer, turning to a random page and random word.

What a fun and interesting game. I encourage you to try it.

Thanks Andrea!!

Almost here!!

The summer is almost here and I cannot wait to enjoy being outside with such a wonderful person!!